华莱士字幕组出品#1，分享请注明来源 It's easy to become a facade.
夜宿人 Maybe especially when you're a pastor.
虚有其表是一件易事 But I know for me...
可能尤其是对于牧师来说 the public persona...
但我知道， you can believe that.
公共场合的形象 And the private person...
你们可以相信 becomes something else.
但私下里， And the result is always pain.
就会变成其他样子 ? Holy, holy, holy ?
结果总是令人心痛 [Knocking on doors]
“圣哉，圣哉，圣哉” ? Lord God almighty ?
“全权的神明” ? Early in the-- ?
“很早的时候...” Morning, gentlemen.
早安，诸位 ? Ho-- ?
“圣...” Ha ha!
哈哈！ ? Holy, holy ?
“圣哉，圣哉，” ? Mor-- ? Good morning, Brandon.
“早~”早安，Brandon！ ? Lord God almighty ?
“全权的神明” Morning, Robert.
早上好，罗伯特 ? Early in the morning ?
“清晨众生之歌穿云而上， ? Our song shall rise to thee ?
“直达至尊” Morning, gentlemen.
早安，诸位 ? Holy, holy, holy, merciful and mighty ?
“圣哉，圣哉，圣哉，慈悲与全能” ? God is the... ?
“上帝是...” Morning, guys!
早安啊，伙计们！ Good morning!
早安！ Good morning.
早安！ You awake?
你醒了吗？ Ha ha! Got coffee on.
哈哈，来点咖啡吧。 You did ok on the floor?
睡地板还行吧？? Oh, man, hang in there, ok?
哦，老兄，再坚持几天好吗？ ? The Lord God-- ?
“神明...” Good morning, Darren, how we doing?
早啊，达伦，你好吗？ Morning, morning.
早啊，早啊！ ? ...is my strength and my song ?
“我的勇气，我的歌声” ? And he has become my salvation ?
“他变成了我的救星” There's no jobs.
工作不好找 Indiana has an unemployment rate
在印第安纳州 for, um, like high school diploma,
呃，如果你只是高中毕业， no college, of, like, 26%.
没上大学，失业率会达到26% Oh, wow.
要命！ Yeah, it's really bad,
是啊，真是惨 and so I tried to get a job,
所以我竭力去找份工作， I tried to get a job, I couldn't.
我尽力了，但我还是失败了 I couldn't get a job, couldn't get a job,
我找不到工作，找不到， and so I read an article,
刚好我读到一篇文章， said there's boatloads of work in North Dakota.
提到北达科塔有的是工作机会 Boatloads.
有的是 My dad said, "Well, um...
我父亲说“呃，好吧..” "I can get some money from grandma, and I'll loan you some.
我可以找你奶奶要点钱借给你， I'll get you a one-way ticket there."
够你买张单程票。 You know? And it's just--
你知道吗，这真是... It's been trial after trial.
现在我就是在不断的等待着审核 And I'm just at the end of my rope.
我已经快走投无路了 You can get a job,
你会找到一份工作的 but you gotta translate into housing.
但你得先变成有居所的人 And that's the-- that's the killer.
而这…这才是关键 Rents have tripled and quadrupled.
现在房租是以前的三倍甚至四倍， People who have lived here all their lives happen to leave.
一辈子都住在这里的人也开始离开 And other people who own property
剩下的拥有房产的人， just don't like the changes and they're leaving.
不喜欢这里的改变，也正在离开 They're selling it.
他们正在卖房子 But everything's expensive.
但是所有的东西都很贵 It's very expensive right now, you know?
现在所有东西都很贵，你知道的吧？ So it is legal to sleep in your car in Williston,
在威利斯顿，你在车里睡觉是合法的 but you can only sleep where people give you permission to sleep,
但是你只能睡在人家允许你睡的地方 and there's not very many places that do.
这样的地方太少了 Anyway, so--so you can stay for a month,
不管怎么说，你可以在这里待一个月 and unless there's a problem, we do ask a gift.
我们要求回报，除非有特殊情况 We don't charge this.
虽然我们不收钱 We're not a shelter.
但这不是避难所 This is a place for men to get jobs.
这是帮人找工作的地方 Now real quick I'm going to run through these rules, ok?
我很快的把这些规章给你们过一遍，好吧？ First we're at church.
第一，这是教堂， If you're not going to church someplace else,
如果你不是要去其他的什么教堂， I'd like you to come to church.
我希望你能来， I think it's only polite, ok?
仅仅是出于礼貌，可以吗？ I don't know what your church background is.
我不知道你的教会背景是什么 We might have a chance to do that,
我们很有可能， but we do background checks here, ok?
会做背景调查，好吗？ No weapons, no fighting, no profanity.
拒绝武器，拒绝争斗，不要亵渎神圣 You want to stay on my good side,
想要给我留下好印象的话， don't spill coffee on the carpet.
不要将咖啡洒在地毯上， Drives me crazy when people spill coffee on the carpet,
这会让我抓狂 because--because that becomes evidence.
因为这会留下证据， "There's a man staying in the building,"
“晚上有人留宿” you know what I'm saying?
懂我的意思吧？ 800 or 900 guys come through this building.
这栋楼里每天进进出出八九百人， And you know it's a struggle we've got, it really is.
你懂这事有多麻烦吧，非常麻烦。 Did you get yours signed?
你签字了吗？ Oh, no, I haven't.
没有，我还没签 Ok. So welcome to Williston, gentlemen.
好啦，欢迎来到威利斯顿，先生们 It's gonna be a trip.
你将开启一场新的人生之旅， What a profound thing.
事态相当严峻 That we have people literally walking up to our door
世界各地的人涌到我们这儿来， from all over the world, saying, "Can you help me?"
真的就站到我们的大门前，说，能帮帮我吗？ WOMAN: We are on our way to Williston, North Dakota,
我们正在去往北达科塔，威利斯顿 hopefully to find jobs.
希望能找到工作 MAN: We're here in DeLand, Florida,
我们在弗洛里达州的迪兰， destination, uh, North Dakota.
目的地是，呃，北达科塔 DIFFERENT MAN: I got my co-pilot, Artie.
这是我的副驾，Artie Say hi, Artie.
Artie，和大伙打个招呼 DIFFERENT MAN: Gonna go out there and try to find an oil-rigging job.
在达科塔的西北部，我们使用高压水砂破裂法在巴肯的页岩地貌地区开采出一个巨大的油田 I spoke to a buddy of mine,
我想离开家，去找个探油的工作 and he said he's making 6 figures out there.
我和一个哥们聊过， I'll find a job within an hour or two, he said.
他说他在那打六份工， JAY REINKE: I have to respect these men
北达科塔掀起了一场钻油的狂潮，引领了当地的经济增长 because I've asked myself, "What would I do
他说“我在一到两小时之内就能找到工作” if I got off a bus and I had to find a job?"
我敬佩这些人， And these men do it.
因为我问过我自己：“如果是我，到一个陌生的地方，下了长途巴士 MAN: I don't know about going back home, but this is where it's at.
“就得去找份工作，我该怎么办？” $15 an hour is minimum wage up here.
这些人正在做这样的事 15 bucks.
成百上千的美国人为了寻找工作，来到北达科塔 You're not gonna find this nowhere in America.
我不想回家，我拿这儿当家了 People with 10 felonies is getting 100 grand a year
这里的最低时薪是十五美金 just 'cause you tough enough.
十五美金 I really have no desire to leave sunny Arizona
在美国，别的地方可没有这样的好事 to go up to the cold of North Dakota,
就算是重案犯，一年也能赚个十万块 but I don't have a whole lot of choice.
只要你能吃苦 MAN: This may be some point of hope for everybody.
我真的不想离开阳光明媚的亚利桑那州， DIFFERENT MAN: We've already rented out a travel trailer
而是到寒冷的北达科塔去 because we know that space up there is limited.
但是我完全没有选择 I can't afford to live. Plain and simple.
对人们来说这可能就是希望所在 JAY: It's very hard to have someone
我们已经租了一辆旅行房车， stand in your office and say, "I have nowhere to go."
因为我们听说了那儿可能没地方住 And to say, "Sorry, I can't help."
很多新来的人无处安身 I've got floor space.
日子没法过了，就是这么简单 [Singing indistinctly]
当人们站在你办公室里， REINKE: The Christian ethic is now,
说他们无处可去的时候， who is my neighbor and how do I serve him?
你真的很难张口说我帮不了你 People without a place to sleep.
至少我还有地板让他们过夜 There's a neighbor in Williston looking at how to serve him.
圣歌 Not only are these men my neighbor,
基督教义是这么说的， but people who don't want them here are also my neighbor.
谁是我的邻居，我该怎样招待他？ The whole overnight thing wasn't really planned.
人们没有地方睡觉 The congregation never really did decide to do this,
在威利斯顿，有一个邻居在思考如何去帮助他们 and that's probably one of the chief criticisms
不仅这些居无定所的人们是我的邻居， that I have to bear.
那些不欢迎他们的人也是我的邻居 WOMAN: It started out with one guy about a year ago,
在教堂过夜这事从来也没有什么计划， and it's just kind of gotten to be a lot more.
教会也从来没有真正的着手去做 It's not something we really just talked about and said,
这可能是我要承担的 "Oh, yeah, why don't we do this."
最主要的指责 It just kind of happened.
最开始的时候是一年前，我们接纳了一个人， People come and they have needs, and you want to help them.
渐渐地越来越多 When you start getting too many people in the building,
我们也没真的讨论过这事， it just--it's a little bit harder to maintain,
比如说开个会，然后说我们就这么干吧” The organization and keep things clean and everything.
它就是这么发生了 And that can be a concern for the congregation.
人们就是这么来了，需要帮助，而你想帮助他们 WOMAN: It's put a strain on our family life
当这栋楼里有太多人的时候， because for the most part, my husband's had to be here
组织纪律，保持整洁等所有的事情 every night and every morning.
维持起来就变得有些困难了 WOMAN: Which is kind of a bummer,
还会影响教众的集会 but you know, he tries to make as much time as possible
这给我们的家庭生活增添了负担， to serve everywhere he needs to serve.
大部分时间，我丈夫都不得不待在这里， ANDREA REINKE: Everybody who comes here says, "You don't know.
每个晚上、每个早晨 Everybody's talking about coming to Williston."
这就有点烦人了 Hopefully at some point we'll transition back to how it used to be.
但是他在竭尽所能 JAY: I don't know of any other parallel.
一直在需要他的地方服务 There's been boom towns,
所有来这的人都会说“你不知道吧” but it hasn't had this kind of depressed economy
“所有的人都在讨论着来威利斯顿” that's putting the pressure for people to go somewhere
从某种意义上说，我们希望把威利斯顿变回原来的样子 the way this one is.
我不知道有没有其他类似的状况 It's happening in a relatively small community,
这里曾经是很繁荣的城市， so the impact of the migration, it's just evident everywhere.
从来没有过这样萧条的经济状况 Thanks very much. Ok, we'll see you.
让人们不堪重负，背井离乡 MAN: I'm not sure if it's legal.
现在的情况就是这样 I don't know if you are even aware of some of this.
这个情况发生在相对来说比较小的社区里， We're just trying to make our point why we need to do something.
所以移民的冲击力更加明显，随处可见 This is a great example of what we're seeing
非常感谢，回头见 in single family residential areas.
我不知道这合不合法， This area here is near the baseball field.
我觉得大家可能甚至还没有意识到这个问题， We've got 3 campers in a backyard.
我们想强调的就是我们该做点什么了 One's a motor home, the other two are pull-behinds.
我们所见到的独居户的居住区， That's not acceptable. That's not a safe environment.
就是一个很好的例子 This is a health concern. It's a safety concern.
这个区域挨着棒球场， And that is why the city needs to do something.
在后院有三辆露营车， JAY: Tonight's city council meeting will be the first formal vote
一个是电机室，另两个是外置的 on an RV ban.
这不行，这种环境太危险了 It will mean that RVs and campers
既有健康隐患，也有安全隐患 cannot have people living in them
而这就是我们的城市需要行动起来的理由 for more than 28 days in a year.
今晚，关于房车禁令的提案， That scares me.
市议会将进行第一次正式投票 I've been in town a long time.
就是说各种房车， I hate to take the role of the antagonist,
在一年里 but I think somebody needs to turn some rocks over
至多只有28天可以住人 and say, "So what is community in this place?
这太可怕了 What are we gonna do here?"
我在威利斯顿住了很久 MAN: We asked for public input.
我不喜欢扮演反抗者的角色， Pastor Reinke.
但是我认为人们应该仔细思考， Thank you, Mayor Poser.
扪心自问：“在这里，社区的意义是什么？” I would speak against the adoption of this ordinance.
我们该怎么办？ I believe that Williston needs to take a step
我们邀请了公共设施的负责人， that says the people arriving on our doorstep
Reinke牧师 are gifts to us,
谢谢您，Poser市长 and though there's a burden in receiving them as a gift,
我反对实施这条法令 to welcome them.
我理解威利斯顿需要采取一些措施： I also believe that by passing such an ordinance
当人们来到我们门前的时候， we risk serving fear,
即使这是上天的馈赠 the fear of the people coming at us,
即使我们把他们当做馈赠来收留 and the last thing we need to do is to serve our fear.
对我们来说这依然是一种负担 Ok, thank you, Pastor.
但我同时也相信假如通过这个条例， WOMAN: So our top story, the FBI says it believes
我们就是在冒着对恐惧低头的危险 it has uncovered the body of missing teacher Sherry Arnold.
恐惧会笼罩我们， MAN: And federal and multi-state law enforcement
而我们不应该做的就是去克服自己的恐惧 discovered a woman's body east of Williston, North Dakota,
好哒，谢谢你，牧师 some time yesterday.
头条新闻，联邦调查局称他们相信 The 43-year-old high school math teacher
他们发现了失踪的教师雪莉 阿诺德的尸体 went for a jog and never returned.
联邦政府和多州执法 MAN: This morning investigators say the know a lot more
发现了一具女尸在东威利斯顿，北达科他州 about the two men they believe kidnapped her.
在昨天的时候 They may driven through
这位43岁的高中数学教师 the popular high school teacher's hometown
出去找工作但是再也没有回来 hoping to find jobs in the booming oil industry.
今天早上调查人员声称他们知道更多内幕 Arnold's disappearance is fueling tensions
关于他们相信有两个男人绑架了她 between locals and the flood of out-of-towners.
他们也许是开车穿过 This normally peaceful town is living in fear.
重点高中教师的家乡 JAY: The Sherry Arnold case was huge,
希望在繁荣的石油工业中找到工作 and it made us suspicious in ways...
阿诺德的失踪正在加剧紧张 that I don't think we would have been.
在本地人和潮涌而来的外地人间 It really does intensify the fear.
恐惧笼罩在这个通常平和的小镇 Everybody's afraid of the newcomer.
雪莉 阿诺德的案件影响十分巨大 Very specifically the overnighters are not welcome in this part of our community,
这让我们怀疑在行为方式上的问题 and what scares me is that good men are vulnerable.
我不认为这是我们的初衷 We've had people sleeping in our parking lot
这件事加剧了恐慌 for sometimes over a month.
所有人对于外来者感到恐慌 They're waiting to come in the building.
很显然，在我们的社区这些夜宿人不被欢迎 Now, something we have to really, really be mindful of,
但使我感到恐惧的是好人也受到侵害 people, when they see the new men in town,
我们有人在停车场睡觉 they wonder-- and we're a church,
有时超过一个月 this is a place where sinners should come--
他们等着进到这所建筑里 but it is a very difficult PR issue,
现在，我们必须铭记 because from a neighbor's perspective,
当人们在镇上看到陌生人 they could perceive us as harboring somebody
他们会认为我们是一个教派 who could hurt their child.
这是赎罪者应该来的地方 If you feel like people regard you with a little bit of...
但是这是一个非常复杂的公关问题 distance, love 'em anyway.
因为从一个邻居的角度来看 Keep trying to build a community here,
他们可能认为我们是窝藏某个 try and be part of the community.
或许会伤害到他们的孩子的人 MAN: "By the embrace of our Lord and savior Jesus Christ,
如果你感觉人们注视着你，带着一些⋯⋯ "Concordia Lutheran Church would like to welcome you.
排斥，无论如何还是要爱他们 "While we open our doors to you,
努力在这里建立一个社区 "there are some very important ground rules that must be followed.
试着去成为社区的一部分 "This building is the house of our Lord
皈依上帝和我们的主 and must be respected at all times."
路德会教堂会欢迎你 Absolutely.
当我们对你敞开大门 I ask that you try to field
你必须遵守一些重要的基本规则 anything you can through me first
这座建筑是上帝的 and try to tie up as little of the pastor's time
必须时时刻刻尊敬 as you can.
完完全全地 He still has a congregation in the church
我想你可以尝试 and a lot of stuff on his plate
任何你能做的事情，但首先征求我 that he still does.
并且尽可能少占用牧师的时间 When I came here, I had a closed heart.
牧师的时间 I wasn't gonna let anybody close to me.
在教堂里，他依然有一个集会 And ever since coming here and listening to the pastor,
并且手头有很多事情要做 I mean, it's just I got ripped away.
他依然会做下去 That's awesome.
当我刚来到这里时，我很内向 I've turned down two $28 an hour jobs.
我不想让任何人接近我 What?
而自从我来到这里倾听牧师的讲话 Just to stay here and help.
我的意思是，我过去的想法已烟消云散 Now we do have a lady here that does back ground checks.
这很了不起 Mm-hmm. I mean, I've never done anything bad,
我已然拒绝了两个一小时28美元的工作 but there's a couple of things on there.
啥？ I have. I've done a lot of bad stuff,
只是待在这里助人为乐 and so it's all good.
现在我们有一位女士做背景调查工作 ALAN MEZO, VOICE-OVER: I've overcome a lot of things
嗯嗯，我只是想说我没做过任何坏事 in my past.
但有一些事情 I was a drunk and a drug addict,
我做过，我做过很多不好的事 and you know, I lived a bad life.
但是现在这一切都很好 I spent 16 years of my life in prison.
我克服了很多事情 I just didn't care.
在过去 And today I do.
我酗酒并且是个瘾君子 WOMAN: Jeremy, were you here last night?
你懂的，我过去很糟糕 MAN: No. Ok.
16年我都在监狱度过 And you are?
我只是不小心 MEZO: The pastor says he trusts my judgment,
但是我今天所做的 and if I make a decision, he'll run with it.
杰里米，你昨晚在这么？ And that's comforting.
不在 好的 This is probably the safest place in Williston to be right now.
你呢？ To be out looking for work and have your heads down.
牧师说他相信我的判断力 But anytime you're here, you're safe
并且如果我有一个想法，他会采用的 and like to keep it that way.
这令人欣慰 That's how we're going to be able to continue doing this.
这儿现在可能是威利斯顿最安全的地方 It really meant a lot to come to a place
出去找工作会使你冷静下来 that felt like I was welcome.
但是任何时候你在这里都是安全的 I mean, this is the only place that I came
并且持续下去 where I was like, "This is a home.
这也是为什么我们能坚持下去 "These are good people here.
来到这里真的意义重大 I like being..." you know.
让我觉得我是受欢迎的 And that meant a lot to me.
我是说，这是唯一的地方我来过 And if it wasn't for this place,
并且我喜欢，这是一个家 we'd pretty much be lost.
这里都是好人 ? As long as life endures ?
我想⋯⋯你懂的 ? Through many dangers, toils, and snares ?
并且这对于我来说意味很多 ? I have already come ?
而且如果不是因为这个地方 ? His grace has brought me safe thus far ?
我们可能会失去更多 ? His grace will lead me home ?
主在我心，我在主里 WOMAN: In church, a lot of times I feel really angry
冲决网罗，历经磨难 when I look around and see these guys,
风尘之中，我在归来 and I feel upset when I walk in and my church is messy
恩典眷顾，一路搀扶 and it smells bad and there's sand on the pews,
靠它指引，终返家园 and they seem disrespectful in church.
在教堂，总会使我感到不爽 Their cell phones are going off,
当我看到周围这帮家伙 and their--sometimes they're talking
当我走进去看到一团糟时我很生气 and they're walking in and out,
这儿闻起来很糟糕，座位上到处都是沙子 and they don't seem to understand what we're doing
在教堂，他们不懂礼节 you know, and they don't respect it.
他们的手机经常响 And I get that, but I understand that's not being very Christian
他们有时交头接耳 and all those kinds of things, but those are real feelings.
并且进进出出 I don't see that that much truthfully.
而他们不以为意 And I think sometimes the guys stand around Sunday morning,
你懂的，他们不懂得尊重 and they're not sure what to do.
在我看来这不应该是一个基督徒该做的 Do they sit here?
但这都是我真实的感受 Do they--You know, what's the appropriate place to be?
我不认为这是可信的 So they feel a little bit awkward,
并且我觉得这些人周六的早晨在消磨时光 'cause they realize they're in someone else's domain.
他们无所事事 If you can't get a job here in the oil patch,
他们坐在这？ and you know, within the first 48 hours,
他们--你懂的，这应该是个什么地方 72 hours, you're probably not going to get a job there.
所以他们会有些尴尬 So then you're going to be working McDonald's, Hardee's,
因为他们会意识到他们是在别人的地盘上 whatever.
如果你不能在这片油田上找到份工作 So we're just going to contribute
然后你懂的，在第一个48小时 to that layer in the community
72小时里，你可能不会在这找到工作了 that doesn't need to be contributed to.
所以你就得到麦当劳，哈迪斯（美国连锁快餐集团）工作 Shelly, I--
不管怎样 That's a huge concern of mine.
所以我们只能去做贡献 Part of my burden is
然而对于某些在社区里的人 I do know some of these families,
并不需要去帮助他们 and I've talked to some of the wives,
雪莉，我-- and they are so grateful.
这是我最关心的事 How long do we intend to support them here
我的其中一部分担忧是 is my question.
我不了解这些人的家庭 Because they have no intention
我和其中一些人的妻子谈过 of building anything here.
她们很是感谢 And so these people come and they rape, pillage, and burn,
我们准备在这帮助他们多久 and then they leave.
这是我的问题 It's heartbreaking to me
因为他们没有打算 to see my plains, my prairies destroyed,
付出任何行动 The wildlife destroyed, our water destroyed.
他们来到这里，烧杀抢掠 This is not... my home anymore, you know?
然后离开 It's very difficult.
我很伤心 [Indistinct chatter]
看到我的田园、牧场被毁掉 MAN: I figured it was time for someone in my family
野生动植物被破坏，河水被污染 to be successful,
这不再是⋯不再是我的家乡了，你懂吗？ not just another person in a little, small town
这很艰难 barely making it.
好吧，我听不清 And I wanted to get somewhere quick
为了家庭我觉得是时候了 and be able to start a good life for my family.
去变得成功 DIFFERENT MAN: Oil mud is what's in the pipes
不再是那个人，那个小镇上的 that we clean them out,
勉强地活下去的人 and solvent is what we use to clean off the pipe filth
我想尽快到其他的地方 and oil mud.
并且能够为我的家庭开始一段新的生活 Really, really dirty work.
管子里有油 The solvent just kind of gets to your skin after a while,
你得把他们清理出来 but they keep telling us
然后用溶剂清理管子里的污垢 that it's gonna stop bothering us after a while.
和油泥 Bad things happen out here.
非常非常脏的工作 And that's one nice thing about this place,
这种溶剂过一段时间会腐蚀你的皮肤 gonna have people like Pastor Reinke
但他们一直在告诉我 where gives you either a place to stay or food or whatever.
这会使我的困扰停止一段时间 I mean, he's not just gonna let you hang out to dry.
坏事发生在这里 He'll take you as you are.
这是关于这里唯一的好事 [Indistinct chatter]
有些人，比如杰恩克牧师 MAN: I'm a journeyman electrician,
给你提供食宿 and I don't know.
我是说，他不会坑你 I thought I could come out here, and if I worked hard
他会待你如己 and I was a hard worker and I knew what I was doing,
还是听不清 that I'd get a job pretty easy.
我是一个有经验的电工 You know, but I'm seeing now that it's not that easy.
我万万没想到 Hey, Mr. Eddie Clark, my name is Michael Batten.
我以为我可以来到这里，并且努力工作 I want to talk to you.
我是个勤奋的工人，我知道我该做什么 If you get time, you think you could give me a call?
我很容易找到一份工作 My number is 912-850-3923.
你懂的，我现在发现这并不容易 And I got your message about the resume,
嘿，艾迪 克拉克先生，我叫迈克尔 巴滕 and I'm going to try to get one together tonight
我想和你谈谈 to fax to you.
方便的话，你可也给我打个电话 Thank you .
我的电话号码是912-850-3923 JAY, VOICE-OVER: There are guys that come,
我收到那条关于你简历的短信 and I hate to use the word "failed,"
我想我们晚上可以一起谈一谈 but they've not succeeded as they'd hoped.
传真给你 And coming to Williston represents an opportunity
多谢 to try something again on a new playing field
这些人来了 with new opportunities.
我讨厌用那个词“不批准” MAN: This is my resume, ok?
但是他们不像他们期望的那样顺利 You can see the format that I have laid out.
来到威利斯顿代表着机会 MICHAEL BATTEN: I like that.
在一个新的平台上反复尝试 So I'll kind of use mine as a template.
伴随着新的机会 Ok, good.
这是我的简历，如何？ And we'll copy your information into there.
你可以看到我展示的形式 I've been listing the church as my home address.
我喜欢这个 They're not gonna hire you
所以我会用我的作为模板 if you appear to be out of state.
不错 Ok.
我们会把你的信息拷贝到这里 You got to have a Williston address.
我已经把教堂的地址当做我的家庭地址 BATTEN: That's my little 2-year-old.
他们会雇你的 Her name's Kileigh and Taylor,
如果你在外州 and my wife's name is Candace.
好哒 My wife, she thinks I'm at a church, but I'm homeless.
你有一个威利斯顿的地址 I think it embarrasses her a little bit.
这是我两岁大的女儿 I don't blame her.
她叫凯莉，这是泰勒 I mean, she's got a little pride in her.
我妻子叫卡黛丝 And all my pride's gone.
我老婆，她觉得我在教堂，但是我无家可归 My pride's been gone a long time.
我就得这会使她有些尴尬 I wish I ain't got to tell her I ain't got a job yet.
我不怪她 Just tell her to hold on.
我是说，她的自尊得到了充分满足 But I can tell in her voice, she's about ready to give up.
然而我却颜面尽失 KEEGAN EDWARDS: Eh?
我的自尊逝去已久 [Baby coos]
我认为我不太会告诉她我至今都没找到工作 Ah ha!
只是仅仅告诉她，“坚持住！” Huh.
但是通过她的言语我可以说她是准备要放弃了 I love you, buddy.
嗯~ Ok.
哈！哈！ You being good for mom?
哈~ I don't know if there's any baby stores out here
我爱你，宝贝儿~ to buy stuff, but...
嗯呐~ Oh.
你对妈妈还好不？ WOMAN: Hold on.
我不知道这附近是否有母婴店 Uh, he smells.
来购买生活所需，但… So do something.
噢！ [Indistinct]
女友：别挂 Ha ha! Ok.
噢！他有点臭气熏天！ Hand him over.
那就做点什么吧！ [Indistinct chatter, guitar playing]
哈哈~好吧 Yeah, sometimes-- Twice he does that.
让我来养他吧！ He know what...
他有时候要把那事做两次 Yeah, and you see...
他知道什么才… EDWARDS: My girlfriend and my kid are coming out here.
嗯哼，你还能看见… And her parents are bringing us a camper
我的女友和孩子马上就要来这了 so that we can have our own place.
并且她的父母打算给我们一辆露营车 Hopefully there's a site.
那样我们就可以拥有自己的住处了 They got little swings for your kid.
万幸这里还有点空地 Cool.
他们还给你的孩子提供了个小摇篮 So is there anyplace available right now?
很棒 WOMAN: No, I'm full.
那这里有让人可以马上入住的空地吗？ I don't do a waiting list.
不，我这已经全注满人了 You can always check back.
而且我也没弄一个候补申请人名单 Just check with me, you know, frequently and see,
你可以随时与我再联系 but I just don't have anything right now.
就是多多联系我然后过来看看 Ok.
但是我现在真的没有个空地 And I have nowhere to even suggest that you go
好吧 it's so full right now everywhere in Williston,
并且我也不知道一个好地方可以建议你去 so...
现在在威利斯顿是完完全全地住满了人 Ok.
唉 They're not coming until the beginning of June,
好吧 so still got a couple weeks.
他们直到6月才会来 GIRL: Really?
因此还有几个星期（来解决住处的问题） 3?
真的？ 3?
Do it again!
3? WOMAN: Hello, dear.
再来一次！ That's ok.
亲爱的你好！ Hey, I just wanted to let you know
万事皆好 the article about the RV ban,
嘿，我只是想让你知道 the church is mentioned in the paper today.
这篇有关旅居车限制的文章 I don't know. Who do you go to?
教会在今天的报纸文章上被提到 It's the same guy.
我不知道你要投奔谁？ It does amaze me that giving people floor space
一个同样的伙计 is provocative.
他们将地板上的空地提供给人们住这件事让我很惊讶 Quite frankly, I don't trust how the "Herald" does stories.
这是很挑衅的！ Its editorial decision has inflamed the fear
很坦率地说，我根本就不相信这个Herald报是怎么讲故事的 in this community.
它社论中所下的判定已经让恐惧蔓延滋生 To be afraid of men walking into your neighborhood,
在这个社区中 that's reasonable to a point.
“害怕有个陌生男子走进你邻居家” There is an uptick in crime.
那可真是个合理的好观点 But if we could only find a way
这里是有犯罪率的上升 to let people meet the overnighters,
但是如果我们找到一个方法 it would change us.
来让大家欢迎接受这些夜宿人 Fear of the unknown would be gone,
那将会改变我们 and we would become a community.
未知的恐惧也将会散去 Hello.
最终我们将四海一家 WOMAN: Hi.
你好！ I'm Pastor Reinke from next door.
你好！ Hi. Hi. Ha ha!
我是住你隔壁的Reinke牧师 How are you?
哦哦！ 嗯哪。哈哈~~ I'm doing well.
过得咋样啊？ I'm here with an invitation.
还不错啦~ Ok.
我来这是为了一张邀请函 You know we got guys staying at the church.
行 Yes.
你知道我们让一群人居住在教堂里 But we'd like to just invite neighbors
没错~ to just sort of see the guys.
但是我们想邀请一些邻居 It's not a meeting about--
就是仅仅去看看他们而已 But it's an invitation just to pray
这并不是一场有关……的会议 and read scripture and sing some hymns.
但就是一个仅仅与祈祷相关的邀请而已 Hello! Hi.
就读读经文唱唱圣歌之类的 I'm Pastor Reinke from next door.
你好！ 你好~ Yes. Ok.
我是住你隔壁的Reinke牧师 Hey, I have an invitation.
好的 嗯哼 [Man, indistinct]
嘿，我这有一封邀请函 Yes, yes, yes.
对，对，没错！ Well, why do you got all them trash over there?
那好，你为什么让这群垃圾们都寄居在这？ Well, um...
额，嗯… No, don't explain.
不，不要解释 Don't distract it.
不要转移话题 Ok.
好 Everybody says they're homeless.
每个人都说他们是流浪汉 Homeless my ass.
脏了老子们的家！ They're making big money.
他们正在挣大钱发大财！ Actually some of these people aren't,
呃 实际上他们中的一些人根本不 and I had one gentleman in the parking lot just last week
上周我在停车场结识了一位绅士 who just lost his home in South Carolina.
他失去了他在南卡罗来纳的家庭 That's his problem.
那是他的问题！ It is his problem,
对没错，确实是他的问题 and I'm trying to help him is all.
我所做的一切就是去试着帮助他而已 So...ok, ok. Thanks.
所以…好，行 谢谢你 Thank you.
谢谢你 Good night. God bless.
晚安！愿主庇佑你！ Here's a gentlemen just called them trash.
又有位先生称呼他们为“垃圾” Not to judge people by appearances,
不要以貌取人 a man with no teeth, living with his daughter,
一个掉光了牙并和他女儿住在一起的男人 calling other people who have needs trash.
竟瞎喊别人是一群垃圾！ MAN: Pastor Reinke!
Reinke牧师! How we doing?
最近怎么样？ I have to admit, sometimes I do have some concerns.
我不得不承认有时候我确实有点忧虑 My college kids are home for the summer,
我上大学的孩子夏天就要回家了 and so I have a 20-year-old daughter,
因此我马上就有个20岁的大姑娘了 so my anxiety levels go up.
那样我的焦虑就更得上升了 JAY: We're not quite sure,
我们并不是很确信 but we're looking at possibly asking people
但我们正在考虑尽可能地告知民众 to stay out of the parking lot until 8:00 at night.
让他们在20点可以待在停车场上之后就离开 Ok.
行 I think that would give some comfort to, um...
我认为那样将会给一些人以安慰，给… to the neighbors.
给那些邻居们 Yes.
没错 The one other thing is
另一件事就是 we are going to call a moratorium
我们正打算申请一项延缓偿付期 on people that have Kiss seat covers.
之于那些拥有Kiss乐队座椅罩的人 If you're going to have that,
如过你拥有了那个 I think you need to find another church.
我认为你就需要自寻另一处教堂（居住）了 Well, you wouldn't want to see me
噢，你绝不会想看见我 dressed up as Gene Simmons.
穿得像个Gene Simmons杀马特般 I wouldn't.
我不会 Believe me, that would be the end of it.
相信我，那将终结它 We wouldn't do that.
我们不会那样做 And my other suggestion,
然后我另外一个建议是 And my other suggestion, I say this all the time.
就是我总是说的那个 Cut the hair. I'm serious.
请把头发理一下 我是认真的 I am serious. Very serious.
我很认真 真的 That's not a requirement, but I got to tell you,
那并不是一项命令，但我依旧要告诉你 appearance means something.
佛靠金装，人靠金装 Did Jesus have short hair?
耶稣剪过短发吗？ Jesus doesn't have our neighbors.
可耶稣没有像他们这样的邻居啊！ I cannot promise you a place in the building, I'm sorry.
很遗憾我不能向你承诺这栋房子里会有你的空地 我很抱歉 The fact is, you have a vehicle.
因为事实上你有一辆车 Many people don't even have that.
然而很多人连这玩意都没有！ [Indistinct]
他们根本没有车 They don't have a car.
我曾经做过一件事 And I did let--
我让Jamie睡在车里，却让她的男友John（——就是这家伙） I got Jamie in that car and her--John, the guy--
滚回了房子里！ I let him back in the building.
好，行，把它写在哪里 Ok. Ok. Write it down somewhere,
不然我会忘的 好吗？ or I'll forget about it, ok?
好，我会做到 I'll do it.
一切稳妥，好的 太棒了，真感谢你！ All right, ok. Ok, thanks.
晚安！ 愿主庇佑你！ Good night. God bless.
快，快点！向前冲！ Come on, go black!
哇哦！ Aw!
快，快点小犊子！ Come on, dogfish!
哇！ [Engine revs]
哈哈哈哈~~~ Woo!
把这线砍了然后让它自由飞翔吧！ Ha ha! Ha ha!
不，就砍这… Just cut the line and let him go.
哈，哈！ No, just cut...
你想让个钩子在你脸上转来转去吗？！ Cut--cut--
噢，不，老兄，是另一边 Do you want to wander around with a hook in your face?
嗯 No, other side of it, man.
伙计，快飞吧！ Oh.
真棒！ Fly away, buddy.
那个女人说你放了个… All right.
她说你放了个绳子在地上 That lady said that you put bi--
来捕鸟？ She said you put bread on a string
Dude，早在上学时我已经习惯了做这种破事 to catch a bird?
嗯？ Dude, I used to do this shit in school all the time.
真的假的？ Yeah?
在镇上有太多的愤怒 Really?
太多的恐惧 MAN: There's too much anger in this town.
我是指，这里有贪婪魅影降临这里 There's too much fear.
那就是我为何离开此处的原因 I mean, this is the epitome of greed right here,
对局外人来说这很不友好 and that's why I want to leave.
我能看见人们脸上愤怒的反应 It's not kind to outsiders,
他们看我就像看一个非法的外来生物一样 I can see the reaction of people.
我认为威利斯顿是一个 They look at me like I'm an illegal alien.
在你生命之中最好的事物 I think Williston could be
确实如此 one of the best things to ever happen to you.
嗯… I do.
别放弃！ Uh...
我认为我已经超越了赎罪 Don't give up.
我并不认为读一些圣经诗文 I think I'm beyond redemption.
和教堂里的一些人出去逛逛 I don't think reading a few bible verses
就能完全改变现状 and hanging out with some people in church
但这只是对我个人而言 is gonna change all that.
不，你知道吗？你真的知道吗？ But that's just me.
知道什么？一些人将会接纳我然后说 No, you know what? Do you know what?
“Paul，我们打算让你住在这 What, someone's gonna adopt me and say,
你可真像我的亲人”？ "Paul, we're gonna graft you in here,
我认为那并不会发生 you're like my family"?
我认为这简直就是做白日梦！ I don't think that's gonna happen.
我生活在真实里，一个真实的世界 I think this is fantasyland.
那么如果人们爱你又会怎样呢？ I live in reality, in the real world.
怎么可能 What about people just loving you?
我现在都40多了 When is that gonna happen?
你开玩笑吧 I'm in my 40s now.
我知道这听起来有点肉麻 When's that gonna happen?
可我就是爱你，我爱你 I know this sounds so hokey.
可我又能得到什么呢？ But I want to love you. I love you.
我。 这是个机会咯？还是你会给我份工作？ But what is here for me?
我明白。就我自己。 I am. Opportunity? Employment?
你可以来我家吃个饭 I know. I am.
话说回来，我觉得你妻子不怎么喜欢我 You can come and have a meal with my family.
怎么会？ I don't think your wife likes me, by the way.
就是感觉 What?
我觉得你不应该邀请我去你家 I sense it.
也许你该和你妻子谈谈 I don't think you should have me over to your home.
为什么不？我当然要 You might want to talk to your wife--
我们经常邀请客人来家里 Why not? Of course I want--
你得把你的家人放在第一位 We always have people over at our home.
你是个顾家的人 You have to think about your family first.
嗨 You're a family guy.
嗨 我要申请当一个卡车司机 Hi.
该找谁 Hi. Who would I speak to about an application
你是个司机？ for a truck driver?
嗯 You are a driver?
驾龄多久 Yes.
大概8年 How many years experience?
好的 About 8.
我得看看他们的申请表上 Ok.
有没有“曾被判刑”这条 I want to see if they have "Been convicted of any felonies"
看来没有 on their application...
这绝对是个改过自新的地方 that I've seen so far.
当时我在沃尔玛的停车场 MAN: It's definitely a place for a second chance.
沃尔玛的工作人员 I was at the Wal-Mart parking lot,
不想让别人再在那停车 then the people from Wal-Mart
后来我就听到有人说 didn't want anybody staying in their parking lot anymore.
他们准备停在一个教堂的停车场 Then I heard people saying
教堂这出了点事 that they were starting to stay in a church parking lot.
然后他跟我说，嗯， Some issues came up her at the church,
我得在停车场过夜 and then he told me that, you know,
他希望我去见见他的家人 I'd have to stay out in the parking lot.
还说我在他们那住多久都行 He wanted me to come meet his family
那，你想怎么样 and that I was welcome to stay with them as long as I wanted to.
你现在想过来吗，还是？ So what do you want to do?
对，咱们现在过去吧 Do you want to come over now, do you think?
其实我跟那牧师不熟 Yeah, let's go over now.
他也对我知之甚少，但 I don't really know the pastor personally that well.
我们之间有某种牵挂 He really doesn't know me that well, but...
和信任 there's a bond there,
所以我觉得也许这是两码事 and there's a lot of trust there,
他这我说，嗯， and I guess maybe it's on a different level.
他觉得我们相遇 He told me that, you know,
相知是有原因的. he thinks that our two lives came
嗨，亲爱的，Keith来了 and we crossed this path together for a reason.
我在想，咱们能不能—— Hi, dear. Keith is here.
邀请他来咱们家 I'm thinking it would be good--
大概十或十五分后到 How about if we brought him over here
行吗 in about 10, 15 minutes?
我想这样比较好，怎么样 Would that be ok?
你要金枪鱼三明治吗 I think now would be better, ok?
嗯 Do you eat tuna sandwiches?
他吃金枪鱼三明治 Yeah.
哦，感谢主 He eats tuna sandwiches.
感谢他的慈悲 Oh, give thanks unto the Lord
阿门 for He is good.
感谢你与我们共进晚餐的你 Amen.
好啦，开始吃吧 And thank you for good company.
嗯，让外人来你们家吃住 All right.
会让你们不习惯吗 KEITH GRAVES: So, um, how do you guys feel about
我认识他的时候 people coming and staying in your guys' home?
他收留了一个18岁的印第安人 When I met him,
让他住在他家的地下室里 he had an 18-year-old Native American guy
呵呵，我都忘了 living in his basement.
我觉得这是件好事 I forgot about that. Hmm.
可以认识各种各样的人 BOY: I think it's a good thing.
我觉得这挺好，我蛮喜欢 It's nice to meet people.
嗯，感谢你们给我这个机会 I think it's good. I like it. I enjoy it.
让我跟你们一起 Well, I appreciate you guys giving me the opportunity
真的，我很感激 to stay with you guys.
当然啦 I really appreciate it.
那是客厅 You bet.
那间是Eric的房间 This is the family room, ok?
这是洗衣机房. That's Eric's room.
卫生间在那边 This is the laundry room.
嗯，大概就这么多 There's the bathroom.
你怎么会决定要 Anyway, so this is it.
邀请我来你家里 What made you decide to...
还让我和你的家人住在同一个屋檐下 let me come into your home
老实说，我首先要做的 and let me stay with you and your family?
就是 The first thing I had to do
我怕报社会来报道我们教堂收留有犯罪记录的人 was, quite frankly,
所以我得保证你不呆在教堂的停车场 I was afraid the paper was gonna come after the church.
我觉得你承担了 So I had to get you out of the parking lot.
其他人的罪过 I think you bear... the burden
但你却不耿耿于怀 of others' injustices,
这点我很欣赏 but you're not bitter about it.
我只是觉得这么做有意义 And that impressed me.
那，咱们进去吧，好吗 I just thought this would work.
好 Well, let's go in. Ok?
一项罪恶或罪行 Ok.
虽然他们都真真切切的发生并记录在案 JAY, VOICE-OVER: A sin or a crime,
但我认为这不应该彻底定义人的一生 while it's real and it is a part of one's record,
我不会让我的孩子冒险 I would submit ought not be the definition of one's life.
我也相信我从未这么做过 I'm not gonna put my children at risk,
至少到目前为止 and I do not believe that I have.
我们不是在说Keith Just for now. Huh.
嗯嗯 We're not talking about Keith.
我本想打给长老们（长老会教堂的管理人员） Uh-uh.
但我还是没这么做，因为 I was gonna call the elders.
我觉得这没必要，我也不该这么做 I decided not to do that because...
对 I don't think I need-- I shouldn't--
我觉得还是暂时别告诉他们的好 No.
对，这些还是别让外人知道的好 I don't think I should tell them yet.
好吧，就算是这样， No, I think that should just be kept at home...
一旦报纸上捅出来了 Well... separate from the rest.
那才是大问题 the problem is if the paper blows it up,
不过到时候我想会有办法的 that's gonna be the problem.
而且我会解释我为什么没有早告诉他们 But then I guess I'll have to deal with it.
可我觉得这样不是在帮他 And then I'll explain why I didn't say anything.
如果我告诉了长老们 But I don't think I'd do him a favor
我觉得这样做不对 if I tell all the elders.
是啊，可是事实上 I don't think it's right to him.
你又不得不想想对你最重要的是什么 It's not, but you honestly got to
问题就在这了，我首先要考虑的是 kind of look at where your priorities are, too.
作为牧师的职责，不过我也得保持警惕 Well, that's it. My first priority is to--
你确实要纠结这些问题： my obligation as a pastor, but I've got to be careful.
我的动机是什么 JAY, VOICE-OVER: You really have to struggle with,
我知道，我 what are my motives here?
也许我其实比我想的 I know, I'm...
更以自我为中心 Maybe this is just more self-serving
可能就是我不太善于说”不“吧 than what I realize.
我觉得答应别人的要求，再承担后果，会更容易些 Maybe it's as simple as I don't say no very well,
嗯，在我的小棚屋里 and so it's easier to say yes and live with the consequences.
我曾经住在牧师家里 ENGEL: Well, over in my makeshift abode,
他求我去住他家里，其实我还不怎么愿意 I was staying at pastor's house.
结果4天后，他又把我赶出来了 He begged me to stay with him, which I didn't want to.
他搞的好像是，因为我不服从他 And then after 4 days, he threw me out.
我才被赶出来，这么个破事 He was turning it into, "I'm throwing you out
但他在赶我的前一个晚上跟我说 because you don't listen to my authority" kind of bullshit,
他想让性犯罪者搬进来 but he told me the night before
事实居然是这样 that he wanted to move in a sex offender,
所以我跟他吵了一架 and that's what it was really about.
我说：“你这是在忽悠我， So I confronted him on that.
”就因为这种屁事把我赶出来， I said, "You know, you're making it about me,
“其实你就是为了 "throwing me out for this bullshit reason,
”让那性犯罪者住在你家 "but it's really 'cause you want to get
“因为教堂不让你那么瞎搞 "the sex offender in your house
”媒体也给你施压， "'cause you're getting heat from the church where you are,
所以你得这么搞。”他也承认了 "and you're getting heat from the media,
他的伪善着实让我沮丧： and you have to move in here," and he admitted that.
他一开始说他爱我 The hypocrisy of the situation gets me a little upset,
结果又把我扫地出门 that someone's gonna tell me they love me
这就是跟你自己坦诚相待？ and then throw my bags out in the street.
他说他不喜欢我的性格 I don't know, is that being true to yourself?
嗯，有一点，我也许是有点凄惨 He told me that he didn't like my character.
但我不会自欺欺人，你知道吗？ I mean, one thing about me, I may be miserable,
虽然我不像Keith，自私透顶，目中无人 but I'm not living a lie, you know what I mean?
不过我是相当的嫉恶如仇 I'm not completely selfish or self-centered like Keith, though,
我跟他说 but I am pretty vindictive.
“信不信我去挨家挨户地告诉他们 I told him that,
你家藏着一个性犯罪者？ "How would you like me to go knock on every door in your town,"
虽然我暂时不会这么做” which I haven't done, "and tell 'em you have
我又说“还是你要我去爆料你？” a registered sex offender in your house?"
末了，我就送他一句圣经里的话 And I said, "How would you like me to go to the media?"
“他们播种的是风，收割的是暴风”（何西阿书viii-9） I'll give him a scripture verse.
你就等着自食恶果吧 You sew the wind, you reap the whirlwind.
到了读经的时候 Add you're gonna reap the whirlwind.
我也就只有那么几招 [Piano playing]
但有那么几篇经文我总喜欢读起 JAY: I'm kind of a one-trick pony
这是约翰福音里的第10章 when it comes into reading scripture,
“我是好牧人； but there's certain passages that I just kind of go to.
”好牧人愿意为羊舍命。 This is from "John," chapter 10.
“我是个好牧人，我识得我的羊，它们也识得我 "I am the good shepherd.
”正如父亲识得我，我也识得父亲 "The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.
“我愿意为他们舍命。 "I am a good shepherd, and I know my own and my own know me
”我的羊熟悉我的声音，我识得它们，它们也愿意跟随我 "even as the Father knows me and I know the Father,
“我赐予它们永恒不灭的生命 "and I lay down my life for the sheep.
没有人能将它们从我手中夺走。” "My sheep hear my voice and I know them and they follow me.
这是我们的规矩 "I give eternal life to them and they shall never perish,
一开始，他们每小时付我15美元 and no one shall snatch them out of my hand."
然后，他们说，既然我已经在这干了3个月 That's how we do it.
他们会给我加薪 They're starting at $15 an hour here,
我曾经非常压抑 and then they said after I've been here about 3 months,
因为我来这一个月了还没找到工作 they'll give me a raise.
现在就是很开心 I went through being really depressed, you know,
我妈也开心，我妻子也开心 'cause I'd been here for about a month and didn't have a job.
她还发给我她买的新衣服的照片 Just being really happy.
还有给即将出生的孩子准备的婴儿用品的照片 Mama's happy, too, my wife's happy, too.
她还订了个婴儿床 She was, like, sending me pictures of the clothes she had bought, you know,
我看得出来她蛮开心 and stuff she bought for the baby that's coming.
因此我也很开心 She put a baby bed on layaway, you know,
因为我知道她得到了她想要的 I could tell she was happy,
对，这也是我想要的生活 and that makes you feel good, you know,
幸福的生活其实就是如此 that she's getting the things she wants.
我干着自己喜欢的工作 Hell, this is what I love, too.
之前我几乎什么都愿意做 That's what makes it so good.
但现在我能做我想做的 I'm doing what I love to do.
看起来是不显眼，不过那就是家 I would have done anything,
我很高兴自己离开了教堂 but I'm getting to do what I love.
我爱你，宝贝 It ain't much to look at, but it's home.
我想你 I'm glad to be out of the church.
亲爱的天父，感谢您带我们来威利斯顿， I love you, baby.
给我们一份工作养家糊口， I miss you.
我们感激您、赞美您 Dear heavenly Father, we thank you and praise you
我们以耶稣之名赞美你，我们的主，阿门 for bringing us to Williston and for giving us employment
阿门 and providing us with food.
我们肯定被保佑了 We praise you in the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord, amen.
所以我们有猪排吃了~ Amen. Amen.
这也是我想的最多的 We've sure been blessed.
我早早的上床 And so we got pork chops.
躺在这里，想着现在事情的进展有多好， This is where I do most of my thinking, too.
赚钱 I get to bed early.
想想看，监工 I lay here and think about really how good things are going right now,
怎么了？谢谢 making money.
是，这样好多了 Think about it, inspector.
这是最重要的部分， What's up? Thank you.
可能就轮到你了 Yeah, that's a little bit better.
要是它看起来不怎么样 The thing is is for the most part,
你要是觉得它不怎么样那它就会把事情搞砸... it's gonna be your call
好的，我知道 'cause if it looks bad,
撕了吧，都是你的 if you think it's bad and it's gonna fuck something up...
好了，自己偷着乐吧 All right.
噢，哈哈 Tear it up. It's all you.
我老板升职了，他要调走了 All right. Enjoy yourself.
Patterson的监工要调走了 Oh, yeah. Ha ha.
他们要让我当监工 My boss got a promotion, so he's gonna be moving up,
哈！ and the inspector at Patterson is moving up,
他们说肯定是我和另一个人其中之一 and they're gonna make me an inspector.
我觉得我比另外一个人更适合 Ha!
他们说要再雇一个人 They said that it was between me and another guy,
当我的助手 and I just kind of had more what they were looking for, I guess,
所以我要有一个伙伴了 and they were saying they were gonna hire another guy
我不想说他职位比我低 and have him be my hand.
对我来说意味着很多。 So I'm gonna have a guy, I mean, like,
嗯，就是——，是—— I don't want to say underneath me,
我只是太..所以 but pretty much.
对 It's--Yeah, it's--
是，我觉得应该给我爸打个电话 I was just...so...
我觉得我应该让他知道..因为 Yeah.
我真的，真的很激动 Yeah, I just figured I'd call dad
好了，伸出右手，就是这样 and I thought I'd let him know 'cause...
你伸出右手，你缩回右手 I was...I was real excited.
你伸出右手。然后摇一摇 Ok, right hand here. Here's how it goes.
你就会变魔术啦，然后你再转一圈 ? You put your right hand in, you put your right hand out ?
这就是全部咯 ? You put your right hand in and you shake it all about ?
我们想着能不能就在这待一晚上 ? You do the hokey-pokey and you turn yourself around ?
我们不能让你和那些家伙睡在一起，明白吗？ ? That's what it's all about ?
女士们现在在我们的图书馆区住着 We were wondering if we could just stay in here for tonight.
我在车里睡就可以 We can't have you sleeping in the room with all the guys, ok?
我只是担心她和我的孩子 The women right now are in our library area.
有些事可能没什么用，但是我得告诉你 I can sleep ok in the car,
他叫Brett，今年十八 but I'm just worried about her and my baby.
他刚进教堂没一会儿 Something's not quite making sense, I have to tell you,
好吧，事实上就是今天下午 but his name is Brett, he's 18 years old.
我让他打了个盹 He just walked into the church here a little while--
现在他告诉我他有脑震荡 Well, actually this afternoon.
好吧，我一会就到，很快就把他带去 I let him nap.
谢谢。拜拜 And now he says he has a concussion.
这就是我为什么不在凤凰城了，先生 Ok, I'll be there. I'll bring him shortly, ok.
这就是我为什么不在凤凰城 Thank you. Bye-bye.
因为我知道有些事儿 That's why I'm not in Phoenix, sir.
要酿成大祸 That's why I'm not in Phoenix.
不管别人是否这么觉得，你知道吗？ 'Cause I know some things are getting ready
我只是告诉你事实而已 to hit the fan.
我知道一个人圣洁和顺从什么样 Whether people think so or not, you know?
也知道拥有权势是什么感觉 I'm just telling you the truth.
但是我现在不是那样了 I know what it's like to walk in holiness and obedience
我想回到那时候 and walk in power and authority,
回到我刚才说的那样 but I ain't doing that right now,
不再吸毒和酗酒 and I'd like to get back to that spot,
我前妻在我们离婚以后 just get back on the word
染上了毒瘾 and get away from the drugs and alcohol.
她打电话问我，“你能不能来救救我？” And my ex-wife, after we got divorced,
我去找她，圣灵 was really into meth.
告诉我“不要——”我们不是夫妻了 She called me. "Can you come rescue me?"
她说“不要和她上床”，是么？ I went and got her, and the Holy Spirit
“你甚至不要——”，你知道的 told me, "Don't--" We weren't even married.
我去找她，送她去戒毒 She says, "Don't have sex with her," right?
我跟她上床了 "Don't even--" you know.
事实上是她自己往我身上扑的，所以—— I went and got 'em, got her into a program,
好了我本来可以不说这些的，但我说了不是么? I did have sex with her.
我跟她上完床之后 Actually she came onto me so--
诶，圣灵告诉我—— Well, I won't get into all that, but I did, ok?
我不再想那些 And after I had sex with her,
曾和她上过床的男人 man, the Holy Spirit told me--
这句话在“箴言”和“诗篇”， I picked up all these spirits of all these guys
要么就是“箴言”里说过，你知道么？ that she was having sex with, man.
我收起了所有这些想法， It says right there in "Proverbs" and "Psalms,"
突然间我回到了凤凰城 or "Proverbs" talks about that, you know?
我知道哪里全天都能找到毒品 I picked up all these spirits,
因为我有经验 and all of a sudden I got back to Phoenix,
但是，唉，我现在有点乱你知道么 and I knew where to get drugs 24 hours a day
是，我没有像我想的那样活着 'cause I had problems with other drugs, ok?
我打不起精神 —— But, yeah, I'm kinda messed up right now, you know?
我一直像行尸走肉一样 And yeah, I haven't been living like I should.
我一直感受着自己的欲望 I haven't been walking the spirit like--
是，我感受不到快乐与安静 I've been walking in the flesh.
我知道这些年我受过的罪 I've been feeling the lust of the flesh.
全是我自找的 Yeah, I don't have the joy and the peace
但是我知道主还保佑着我 and all that stuff that I walked in for years,
我知道他想让我悔改 because of the sin of my life, I know that,
他还跟我说话不是吗 but I know the Lord's still with me.
所以，你知道的，我还有上帝的保佑 I know that he wants me to repent.
没错，我有 He still speaks to me, all right?
好了，她发现了这的很多问题 So, you know, I'm in God's hands.
酒和毒品的问题，二级严重伤害 I am. I am.
2010年的认罪协议，行为不检点 [Cell phone rings]
四级严重伤害 Well, she's come up with quite a bit of stuff here.
我没告诉你 Alcohol, drug issues, aggravated assault charge in '02,
我没告诉你我爸是谁 plea bargain in 2010, disorderly conduct,
我妈被强奸了 DUI '04, aggravated assault.
我就这样来到了这个世界 Oh, I didn't tell you.
那也让我头疼 I didn't tell you who my father was.
在我生下来之后 My mother was raped.
她又被强奸了 That's how I came into this world,
所以我两周大的时候被领养了 and that kind of screwed my head up, too,
我真的想相信上帝 after I met her.
但那太难了 She was raped.
太难了 That's why I was adopted when I was 2 weeks old.
我.. I really do want to get right with God.
你知道吗？能我能告诉你一件事吗？ It's just hard.
什么？ It's hard.
你和我有很多一样的地方 I'm...
是吗？ Do you know something? Can I tell you something?
我已经支离破碎了，我们都一样 What?
我们都支离破碎了 You and I are a whole lot more alike than we are different.
我们一起处在破碎之中 Really?
这是一个支离破碎的世界 I'm broken. We're broken.
每个人都一样 We're just broken.
困难的是，没有人擅长去爱 We're in this together.
但我们必须去爱 JAY: It's a very broken world.
你知道的，支离破碎的人们需要爱 Everybody's broken.
去年冬天，更多的感觉到的是 The hard part is that nobody's good at loving,
这里给了我们一个暖和的地方睡觉 but we have to do it anyway.
春天到了，我觉得没有人愿意 You know, broken people need love.
继续待在这儿了 Last winter the more the feeling was
但我们还一直待在这儿 it gave people a warm place to sleep.
我们刚来的时候这里的规模还能小 Spring came, I think we thought
可能只有10-15个人住在这 no one was gonna stay here again.
现在，这发展的越来越大 And it just continued.
而且，我觉得有点超出控制了 WOMAN: When we came, it was small.
我觉得这地方需要加强管理 There was maybe 10-15 people here.
Glen，你有问题吗？ And so I mean it's really grown,
我确实有一个技术上的问题 and it's gotten, I personally feel, a little out of hand.
关于这个问题我深入到了城市中 And it needs to get a little more control over it.
你想说什么？ Glen, you had a question?
这个城市的事儿 I do have a technical question.
我们把教堂 I did go down to the city about this.
用于这个项目 What are you talking about?
哦，好 For--for the city.
我们这样做可能违反当地条例了 To use the church for the program
我觉得我们应该遵纪守法 that we are using it for.
Alan问过消防队长了 Oh, oh, ok.
他估计我们都用不上洒水车 We may be breaking local ordinances by doing it.
但我觉得它很有用 We're supposed to follow the rules.
我明白这事不正规 JAY: Alan did bring in the fire chief,
但我觉得听着很有用 and his estimation was that we wouldn't need sprinklers,
我觉得我们需要寻求许可 but I just think it's helpful--
能得到一个特别许可使用权 and I realize that's not official,
但是我需要告诉你的是， but that was helpful to hear, I think.
我不想去平息那些 I'm saying that we have to ask permission in the city
“出了什么问题？有什么危险吗？”这种舆论 to actually get a special permitted use.
它们就在那 JAY: But I've got to tell you, folks,
但是我觉得那是可行的，他们是可以管理的 I don't want to suppress the discussion about
虽然会很乱，但并不是错误 what are the problems here, what are the risks here?
我认为这是我的职责 They are there.
而且我认为我们的努力很值得 But I think they're doable, they're manageable.
没错，很值得 It's messy, but that doesn't mean it's a mistake.
谢谢 I would say it means it's ministry,
欸，有谁有喷灯吗？ and it's really worth, I believe, the effort.
谁有么？你能弄到么？ I really do.
哈 Thank you.
什么？ Uh, does anybody have a blowtorch?
哈 Someone does? Can you get it?
你多大了？ Ha.
什么？多大？ MEZO: What?
十一个月了 Ha.
嗯..十一个月了？ So how old are you?
嗨，牧师 [Baby talk]
嗨，Keegan，怎么样？ What's that? How old?
见到你很开心 EDWARDS: 11 months.
嘿 Oh, 11 months old?
最近谁给你剪的头发？ EDWARDS: Hey, Pastor.
我告诉你 Hey, Keegan, how you doing?
嗯 Good to see you.
嘿，最近怎么样？ Hey.
我要吓吓他 Who's been cutting your hair these days?
嗨，最近怎么样？ I'll tell you what.
我是牧师Reigke，你叫什么名字？ Yeah.
我们怎么样？ Hey. How are you?
你叫什么名字？ I'm gonna scare him.
你会说Darren嘛？ How you doing?
Darren？嗨，Darren。你好吗？ I'm Pastor Reinke. What's your name?
还行，你是？ How we doing?
我叫Sabrina What's your name?
Sabrina。好，很高兴你能来，Sabrina。 Can you say Darren?
你们是刚到威利斯顿吗？ Darren? Hi, Darren. How are you?
你们是什么时候到这的？ Ok, and you are?
是周三吗？ I'm Sabrina.
好,好。你们在哪儿... Sabrina. Ok, good to have you with us, Sabrina, ok.
你们住在哪儿? So did you guys just get to Williston?
我们,呃,你听说过Wheelock吗? When did you get here?
嗯,听说过 On Wednesday?
我们住在那儿 Ok, ok. Where are you guys--
把一群人联系起来,还有其他的那些事 Where are you guys staying?
哦,是吗?你们觉得怎么样? We're, uh, you ever heard of Wheelock?
这真是糟透了 Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
好吧 We got our camper set up out there.
街道在倒塌? Got a bunch of hook-ups and all that.
街道在倒塌吗? Oh, they do? How is that for you?
倒塌,街道在倒塌吗? [Pages turning]
街道在倒塌吗? [Strumming guitar]
是啊 That was absolutely terrible.
男声: 快,跑过那儿! There we go.
Jay,旁白:我曾经一度有时间陪伴我的家人 [Singing indistinctly]
但我却没有那么做。 ? Streets are falling down ?
我没有像我需要经常做的那样子 [Singing continues indistinctly]
去陪陪我的妻子和孩子 ? Streets are falling down ?
因为我的心思被这里发生的事占据了 ? Falling down, streets are falling down ?
我还得说... ? Streets are falling down ?
不仅因为他们的缘故,也因为我自己的缘故 Yeah.
啊! MAN: Go, get through there!
祝贺你 JAY, VOICE-OVER: There are times when my time that is committed to my family
干得漂亮 is not given to my family.
好的,稍后见 I'm not as involved with my wife or my children as I need to be
再见 somewhat regularly
再见,伙计们 because I'm preoccupied with what's going on here.
不在这儿 And I have to address that...
男生:在外面-- 在那后面 for my own sake as well as for their sake.
好的,我去看看,谢谢你 Argh!
你不认识Todd吧，对吗? Congratulations.
男声:什么? Good job.
Todd,最近几晚住在教堂的那个人? Ok, catch you later.
认识 Bye.
你见过他吗? 没有 See you, guys.
Todd! Not there.
噢 MAN: Out-- Out in the back.
你去哪儿了? Ok, I'll look. Ok, thanks.
你去哪儿了? You wouldn't know Todd, would you?
怎么了? MAN: Huh?
你知道我做了什么吗? Todd, who's been at the church the last couple of nights?
进去喝一杯吧 Yeah.
我在这些酒吧里面找你 Have you seen him? No.
我做了我从来没有做过的事 Todd!
我走进两家脱衣酒吧去找你 Oh.
你是过来找我的? Where have you been?
是的 Where have you been?
噢,太感谢你了 What's up?
我的意思是,天哪,这-- Do you know what I did?
没关系,我只是有点担心 Had a few more beers.
噢,天哪,这些下车的人是谁? I checked these bars.
主啊,请别让他们打我电话 I did something I've never done before.
他有票 I went in two strip clubs looking for you.
上车坐吧? You came looking for me?
嗯,哪儿都行 Yeah.
你真让我受宠若惊,兄弟 Oh, thank you so much.
因为从来没有一个牧师 I mean, God, that--
对我这么关注 No, that's fine. I just was worried.
我才认识你几天 Oh, crap, who's all these people getting off the bus?
好的,谢谢你,兄弟,保重 Lord, please don't have them call me.
谢谢你,上帝保佑 He's got the ticket.
这就是作为一个牧师的日常生活 MAN: Take any seat?
你可能会被深深地、紧密地 Yeah, anywhere.
卷入他人的生活 You're killing me, man,
随着时过境迁 because I've never had a pastor
他们要么只是离开，要么一些时候，事实上 that took as much interest in me.
他们会反过来和你作对 I've only known you a couple, few days.
Jay:今晚是对于RV禁令的最后一次开会和投票 Ok. Thank you, man. Take care.
我难以想象这个城市真的会对人们说 Thank you. God bless
“就算别人允许 That is often what it is as a pastor.
你也不能睡在别人的停车场里” You can be intensely involved in people's lives,
基本上我能做的是 very profoundly.
如果这项法律通过了 And over time and circumstance,
就和这座城市说再见 either they just depart or actually at times
我们现在在教堂的车道上 they turn against you.
我给教堂捐款是为了补偿我所使用的公共设施 JAY: Tonight it's the final reading and the final vote on an RV ban.
我没有伤害任何人 I can't imagine that the city could actually say to people,
我没有乱扔垃圾 "You can't sleep in someone's parking lot
我没有尝试去做任何坏事 if they give you permission to be there."
我本希望看到一种可能，你知道的 Basically what I've done is
就是这个城市能找到一种办法 I've come to say good-bye to the city
向我们收取周费或者月费 if this law passes.
直到犯罪率降到一个正常的水平 We're in a church driveway right now.
但是我怀疑我们将要看到 I donate to my church to offset the utilities that I use.
你再也见不到像我这样的人 I don't abuse anybody.
我们要离开了 I don't dump my waste.
我们现在的情况 I don't try to do anything.
今晚在这里举办公众听证会 I would have liked to have seen the possibility
就是为了解决这个问题 that the city could have found a way to charge us
讨论结束 a weekly fee or a monthly fee, you know,
Reinke牧师 until rates came down to a reasonable amount,
呃,关于住在你的停车场的 but my suspicion is what we're gonna see
那几名性犯罪者的问题 is you're gonna see people like me,
你一个也没有回答 we're going to be leaving.
你了解情况 We are not in a position
我了解到 where we have a public hearing on this tonight,
你请这个人到你家去 not looking to do that.
你有女儿 End of discussion.
真的吗? Pastor Reinke,
告诉我这不是真的 well, you haven't answered a single question
只要告诉我这不是真的 about the several sex offenders
我就再也不追问你了 who have lived in your parking lot.
Reinke牧师,直到我开始向你提问 You knew about this.
这几名性犯罪者 You've invited this person into your home
是不是还住在你的停车场? from what I understand.
稍等,让我确认一下 You have daughters.
让我想想 Is that true or not?
Reinke牧师,我在问你 Tell me it's not true.
一个直截了当的问题 Just say it's not true
请给我一秒钟静一静 and you will never hear from me again.
好,好,所以说有两个人在你的停车场住了几个月 Pastor Reinke, were there sex offenders...
如果你不知道 也没关系 up until I started asking you about it
我能理解 living in your parking lot?
你需要告诉我,比如“我不知道。” Just a second. Let me make sure.
但事情好像不是这样,牧师 Let me think.
好像你完全清楚地知道 Pastor Reinke, I'm asking you
你的停车场里住着两名性犯罪者 a straight-forward question.
就住在一个有许多家庭,有许多孩子的社区里 Excuse me just a second.
而你什么也没做 Ok, ok, so there were two living there for several months.
现在他要尾随他来到我们家了 If you didn't know, then that's fine.
他知道他住在我家 I would understand that.
我很高兴能让他在我家住下 You need to tell me, like, "I didn't know."
但他现在要做的是让这成为一个公众事件 That doesn't seem to be the case, Pastor.
他要让教会质问我 It seems to be that you were fully aware
他不会放手的 that you had two sex offenders living in your parking lot
那个记者... in a neighborhood with families, with children,
可能意味着我在威利斯顿职业生涯的终结 and you did nothing.
这就是将要发生的 JAY: Now he's gonna come after him in our home.
意味着一切的终结 He knows that he's in our home.
你还好吗? [Scoffs]
他知道了一切 I'm glad to give him a place in my home.
他知道他住在这儿? But what he's gonna do is by making this a public issue,
是的 he's gonna make the church question me.
我的意思是,他们会说 [Train whistle blows]
“牧师,你不再能胜任这里的工作了。” He's not gonna let it go.
我们就这件事进行了一次家庭讨论 That reporter...
我们谈了谈 could mean the end of my ministry in Williston.
我们知道这个人的故事 That's what it could mean.
我们不介意-- Could mean the end of everything.
我不介意他住在我家 You ok?
一点儿也不 He knows everything.
噢,主啊,请在我们将要绝望的时刻 He knows he's living here?
给我们希望 Yes.
感谢你赐予我们一个家庭 I mean, this could be,
在这里我们分享彼此的爱 "Pastor, you're just not competent anymore."
阿门 We'd had a family discussion about it.
我以为他会放手 We've talked about.
但他想要搞个大新闻,嗯? We know the story of the guy.
如果这出现出现在报纸上,邻居们就会知道 We're very comfor--
如果事情按照你说的那样发展 I'm comfortable with him staying in our home.
我将再也不能在这里工作 Absolutely.
我要去找-- JAY: Oh, God, please where we are tempted to despair,
你知道,等等 give us hope.
我想要你留在这儿 Thank you for giving us a family
我认为我们要一起渡过难关 that is able to share love.
这是我所希望的 Amen.
你的妻子怎么想? I thought he was gonna let it go,
你觉得对于你的家庭,教会,还有你的丈夫来说 but he's gonna write a story, ok?
最好的情形是怎样的? If it hits the paper, the neighbors will know.
我确实顾虑 If this goes the way that you're talking about,
邻居们和教会 I'm not gonna be able to work anymore.
因为那些不知道你的故事的人... I'm gonna have to find--
呃,无法同情你 You know, just a second. Hold on.
并且大部分人 I want you to stay here.
当他们听到“登记在案的性犯罪者” I think let's do this together.
他们想到一些--性骚扰者和强奸犯 That would be my hope.
我的意思是, 他们会一直有这样的顾忌 What does your wife think about all this?
他们没有意识到 What do you feel is the best situation
一个十八岁的男孩和一个十六岁的女孩--他的女朋友发生关系 for your family, the church, your husband?
这是完全不同的类型... The concerns I did have
但他们知道有区别 was the neighbors and the church
我在担心 because people who don't know your story...
教会的成员们,呃... uh, can't empathize.
呃... JAY: And most people,
质疑我丈夫的... when they hear "registered sex offender,"
对于这些人的处理方式 they think of some-- a molester and a rapist.
议论纷纷 I mean, they just go on and on.
议论纷纷 And they don't realize, you know,
这整个的-- and 18-year-old guy sleeping with a 16-year-old girl,
让我问你一个问题 his girlfriend, and that's a different kind of a...
教会的整体目标是什么? but they understand there's differences.
教会的信条是什么? I'm concerned about
拯救有罪的人, 宽恕罪恶 the members of our church, um...
生命与救赎 ah...
这是底线 calling into question my husband's...
...基督 dealings with the guys.
爱人类 JAY: Judgment.
...因他们的罪恶而丧生 Judgment.
你们说的那些 What's the whole--
可能对教会而言是一个问题 Let me ask you this question.
或者说教会所关心的 What's the whole purpose of the church
应当是教会 and what's the whole church doctrine?
该做的事 Save sinners, forgiveness of sins,
问题在于 life and salvation.
我们在与罪人相处， That's the bottom line.
并且一些人是极端的、可怕的， ...Christ.
嗯，好吧，我想说的是 And then love people.
我们为什么不在采取行动之前， ...died for their sins.
先面对面的谈话 The things that you guys are saying
有一点，在先前的会面中， that may be a problem for the church
你并没有感到担忧 or that the church is concerned about
你认为我们应该让这些人接受洗礼 is something that the church
呃，这不是…… is probably supposed to be doing anyway.
无论如何，嗯…… The problem is
对，对 we're working with sinners,
新人加入了我们 and some people are fearful.
但是曾经在这里生活过的人， JAY: Well, ok, here's what I'm asking.
难以被替代 Why don't we, just before we take any action,
他们离开了 let's talk face to face.
他们也走了 At one point at the previous meeting,
走了 you were not upset about this.
谢谢你们邀请我 You suggested we get showers for the men.
来这里谈话 Um, this isn't...
我今天来这里只是想听一听 Anyway, um...
你们可能想和我说的话 Yeah, yeah.
在你们的社区，你们的教众中间， We add new people.
都发生了什么 But it's hard to take off
如果可以的话，帮助我想一些的办法， the people that aren't there anymore.
来让我们区级介入， They left.
从而帮助你们分担困难 They left.
我认为我们面前最大的问题就是 They left.
我们的教堂已经失去了很多会众 Well, thanks for your invitation
没错 for me to come and talk with you.
我很想念他们。 My presence here tonight is to just to kind of
我认为当人们之间的关系在一些压力之下变得紧张的时候， hear what you might have to say to me
很多问题就相继而来了 about what's going on in your community
这种情况造成了很大的不满吗？ and in your congregation
是的 and to help me think if there are ways
没错 that we as the district might plug in
你们认为这个教区的人们 to help you in some way or another.
感觉自己遭到了入侵吗？ WOMAN: I think the biggest problem we have right now
嗯……我认为是这样 is we've lost many people from this congregation.
有一段时间我走在楼里 Uh-huh.
觉得很不安全 And I miss them.
你们感到乐观么？ I think when relationships are put under stress
你们觉得情况会有好转吗？ by those kinds of pressures, lots of things happen.
或者你们仍然在…… 哦，哦 Does that create a certain amount of resentment?
我已经看到你们摇头了 Yes.
情况并没有好转 Yeah.
现在教堂里的情况是一团乱麻 Do you think the people of this congregation
你可以做一切积极的事情来帮助他人 feel like they are being invaded?
但是当来到到教堂的人越来越少的时候， MAN: Mm-hmm. I'd say yes.
我们还会有足够的人 There for a while I didn't feel safe
去关心这个社区吗？ coming into the building.
在当时我们批准 Is there any sense of optimism?
照顾夜宿人的会议上 Is it going to get better?
我们有七个新成员…… Or are you still in a-- Oh, ooh.
是的，我知道…… I see heads going already.
有个很大的局在展开 It's not getting better.
非常大， MAN: It's kind of a twist in the church right now.
从那之后我就再没见到那些人 You can make all the positive things you want
或许我们只是被利用了 about helping people and doing that,
请为人人相爱的力量而祈祷 but when we're losing your people coming to church,
因为你们压力重重， are we gonna have enough people left here
如果你们只依靠自己的力量， to take care of this place?
你们将会走入绝境 The meeting that we approved
你们要彼此相爱 that we would carry the overnighters,
彼此交流 we had 7 new members--
我们在天上的父，愿人都尊你的名为圣 MAN: Yeah, I know--
愿你的国降临 There was a large manipulation that went on,
愿你的旨意行在地上，如同行在天上 very large manipulation,
我们日用的饮食，今日赐给我们 免我们的债，如同我们免了人的债 and I haven't seen any of those people since then.
不叫我们遇见试探，救我们脱离凶恶 Maybe we're just being used.
因为国度，权柄，荣耀，全是你的 直到永远 TERRY FORKE: Please pray for strength to love each other
阿门 because you are under extreme pressure,
嗨 and if you depend on your own abilities,
你今天过的怎么样？ you're gonna nose-dive.
我还好 You need to love each other
我叫Simon Jones and be able to speak to each other.
我从密西西比来 Our father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name,
我来这里 thy kingdom come, thy will be done
为了找活干 on Earth as it is in heaven.
我打算明天早上 Give us this day our daily bread and lead us not into temptation
去看看招工的事 but deliver us from evil
如果我不能在油田找到活， for Thine is the kingdom for ever and ever.
我就回东面去 Amen.
呃，我不是想把你从油田赶走， JAY: Hi.
但是我应该告诉你，你在年龄上并不占优势 How are you doing today?
年龄大一些的人很难被雇用 I'm ok.
我向你推荐在沃特福德市的一个地方 Simon Jones is my name.
他们在招杂工 Ok. I'm from Mississippi,
至少它值得你打个电话问问 and I come up here
哦 to see about some work.
多谢 Check out job service.
我只能帮你这些了 I plan to do that in the morning.
已经足够了 If I can't get in the oil field,
你知道吗， then I'll just head back East.
一整天都有需要帮助的人 Well, um, I'm not trying to write you out of the oil field,
不断打来的电话， but I will tell you, age is not gonna be in your favor.
所以… Older guys don't get hired nearly as quickly.
有时候我会想，如果这一切结束了 Let me give you the name of a place in Watford City.
就好了， They're looking for roustabouts.
但是我也意识到，嗯…… At the very least it will be worth a call.
总会有人来求助 Hmm.
这不会结束 Thank you.
并且只要有人来， I'm sorry I can't give you more.
他们就需要我去帮助 That's enough.
我真的难以拒绝 You know, it's just all the phone calls
在我们必须要做的事情里，这是最难的之一， and the interruptions and guys who want help
我很希望有一天这一切都会结束。 and just calling all day.
噢，天啊。噢，天啊 So...
噢，我不知道该说什么 Some days I think if it were over with,
局面失控了 it would be better,
Keith 在性犯罪者名单上， but I also realize that, um...
并且因为把我们的教堂列为地址…… the people are gonna still keep coming.
我可以说今晚每个居民都会惶恐不安 They're not gonna stop.
仁慈的上帝啊 我祈求你保佑那些 And as long as there's people coming,
被列入性犯罪名单的人 they're gonna be asking for help.
他们当中一些人的罪行是残暴的 And it's hard to say no.
我们祈求，上帝让他们明白 This is one of the hardest things we've ever had to do...
他们并不仅仅是所被标记的那样 and I'll be glad when it's done.
当我们发现 Oh, man. Oh, man.
他们曾经…… Oh, my word.
显然这会引起人们担心 JAY, VOICE-OVER: It's damage control.
为那些曾遭受苦难的，被虐待的 Keith is on this list,
儿童祈祷。 And by putting our church here as the address...
为那些没得到尊重的女性祈祷 I can tell you every neighbor is nervous tonight.
请让你的言语安慰并指引他们 Most merciful God we ask your blessing
不，不，不 upon the men whose names appear on the sex offender list.
等等 Some of those crimes are brutal.
只是，您知道，女士 We ask, O Lord, that you would help them to know
就这样吧，我不想再听任何 that they are not just what that label says they are.
繁杂的解释了 不！ When we discovered them,
我有些同情那些 they had that...
无力自卫的人 Obviously that raises a concern.
他们负担着压力 Pray for the children that have suffered
所有人都背负压力 and been abused.
这就是我的错，而不再是我女朋友或者我的孩子的问题， Pray for the women who were not treated with respect.
嗯…… Please let your word comfort and guide them.
她真的不喜欢这里的生活 WOMAN: No. No, no.
我的意思是… Ok, well, ok. It's ok.
换作是我也不会喜欢 Ok, but just, you know, ma'am--
她整天都被困在野营车里 That's fine, but I don't want any part
照顾我的儿子 of any more of all the rigmarole. No.
我完全能理解这对于她来说有多难 [Door closes]
这不是什么大不了的事，兄弟 JAY: I'm kind of sympathetic with somebody
她出过两次门 who just can't defend themselves.
两次？ 是的 They're carrying burdens.
她试着去找工作？ Everybody is bearing a burden.
不，她，额， [Train whistle blows]
她想在家那面找个工作， It's just me, it's not my girlfriend or my kid anymore,
回家找个工作做会容易很多 so...
因为那儿有我母亲帮忙照看孩子， She really wasn't liking it out here.
还有她母亲 I mean...
我是说，他们都愿意无偿的照看孩子， I wouldn't like the situation she was in either.
就像他们都不要钱或是什么。 She was cooped up all day in a camper
她需要待在这儿，兄弟 watching my son.
服务生每小时能赚16美元外加小费。 I definitely understand why it was hard on her.
你知道我想说什么吗？ That's just the little things that come, man.
这是最理想的地方，兄弟 She's been out here twice.
哦，是的 Twice? Yeah.
真的 我是说 She try looking for work?
你需要一定的东西去生存 Nah, she, uh,
特别是现在，正在过冬，兄弟 she's wanting to get a job back home,
我不是厌弃这里 but it's a lot easier to get a job back home
但除了她，究竟还剩什么呢，兄弟？ 'cause she had my mom to watch my son
我觉得他只是需要去见见他的女朋友， and her mom.
然后他就安心了 I mean, they all watch him for nothing,
因为这里的生活会很艰难，如果没有… like they don't ask no money or like that.
如果你没有女性的陪伴 She needs to be here, man.
来让你脚踏实地，你可以想象吗？ Waitresses are getting paid 16 bucks an hour plus tips.
当你遇见的都是男人，男人，男人，男人， You know what I mean?
急于挣钱 This is the best place to be, man.
呃 Oh, yeah.
是的，他会回来的 Really. Well, I mean, you got to have
我希望我能和家里人 certain tools to survive,
度过足够的时光 especially right now through the winter, bro.
并且只是看看她们 Well, I ain't ditching this place.
然后再回来加倍努力的工作 What else is there, man, really?
你知道你应该怎样做 I think he just needs to go see his girl,
我妻子已经一周没和我说话了 and then he'll be all right.
她说我抛弃了她 'Cause it's rough out here with no--
我不知道发生了什么 when you don't have a female companion
她不接我的电话 to help you keep your level ground, you know?
她是那种不能忍受孤独的人 When all you see is males, males, males, males
然而，我却扔下她一个人 hungry for money.
你知道他们怎么说吗， Mm-hmm.
如果你不去照顾她，别人就会去 Yeah, he'll be back.
我来这里满怀抱负 I'm hoping that I can spend
我是说踌躇满怀 enough time with my family
我觉得一切都开始变好， and just kind of see 'em all and whatnot
直到上周 and come back with a vengeance.
我觉得，如果我回家，我可能还有机会 You know what you got to do.
挽回我的家庭。 BATTEN, VOICE-OVER: My wife hasn't talked to me in about a week.
如果不这样，就没有机会了 She said I've abandoned her.
不管我在这里赚到了多少钱 I don't know what's going on.
然而当我回家的时候，那里还有什么呢? She don't answer my calls.
同样是一无所有。 She's the type of person, she can't be alone.
至少在这里我还可以抬起头 And I've left her alone.
知道自己在奋斗，在挣扎 You know what they say,
在家不过是另一种流浪 if you don't give them attention, somebody else will.
我回家了，宝贝 I came out here with a lot of hope.
爸爸要回家了 I mean a lot of hope.
我想知道有多少像我一样的人来到了这里 Kind of felt like it was going good
他们处境相同 just until this last week.
他们失去了家庭 I mean, if I go home, I might have a chance
讽刺的是，我来到这里是为了拯救我的家庭， to get my family back.
而这使我背弃了我的家庭 If I don't, I got no chance.
我们会让你考虑一下 No matter how much money I make out here.
而不是打上所有的名字， And then when I go home, what's gonna be there?
所以我们打出的这个名单 Same ol' nothin'.
可能不会像我们想象的那样有帮助 At least out here I can hold my head up
我们无法辨别它们的程度 是的 and know I'm working and trying.
它仅仅产生了一个强烈的情感冲击 At home, just another bum.
嘭！这是一个性侵犯者名单 Coming home, baby.
所以这只是一个敌意和情绪的转移 Daddy's coming home.
我认为写下所有的名字 I wonder how many guys like me has come out here
是不公平的。 and they're in the same boat.
但你知道我们只能 They're losing their families.
在全说和全不说中 It's ironic that I came out here to save my family,
做出一个选择 and it's probably gonna cost me my family.
我们觉得 JAY: I would still ask you to consider
公众的知情权比 that rather than printing all the name,
人们有危险的事更重要 these are the reasons why a list we print
这可能会产生危害 would be maybe less helpful than we'd like it to be.
因为，你知道的，我有四个孩子 We can't distinguish between the levels. Right.
我有权了解我的孩子在街区里 It just creates a strong emotional reaction.
是否有危险 Boom, here's a sex offender list.
对于我来说这比任何事都重要 So a just quick transfer of hostility and emotion.
所以你不能驾驶卡车 See, I don't think it's fair
因为那会使你和公众接触 to write every name,
某些人... but you know, our choice
我很高兴Keith在我家， was either we run nothing
我真的很高兴 or we run 'em all.
我信任他， 并且我意识到你处于一个困难的境地 And what we decided is
当我们去调查他的背景， the public's right to know outweighed
你知道的， 通常我们只能查到过去七年， the risk that people that aren't dangerous
所以显然我们没有抓到点子上 might get harmed by it.
否则他可能不会被雇佣 Because, you know, I have 4 little kids.
为什么我们要为这些麻烦而烦心？ My right to know if my kids are in danger
我不得不向其他47位雇员解释 in my own neighborhood
我在这里， 我们在做力所能及的一切 to me is more important than anything else.
我们不会使任何人受到伤害。 So you can't drive a truck because
我想要你的支持，可以吗？ that would put you in contact with the public.
但是你隐瞒了信息 Certain people...
这并没有帮助你， 并且也没有对别人起作用。 [Indistinct]
你以为你在保护你自己， JAY: I'm glad to have Keith in my home,
而实际上...它增加了风险 I really am.
现在，这兑现了 And I trust him and I realize you're in a difficult spot.
我认为如果在你的求职表中写入你的罪行， When we ran his background check,
你可能不会被雇佣 you know, routinely we only go back 7 years,
我想这是真的。 这是你必须承受的风险 so we obviously didn't catch this thing.
我想你以为你少说一些， Otherwise he probably never would have been hired.
你就保护了你自己 Why would we bother with the hassle?
而我认为那让你陷入更大的风险中 I have to justify to the other 47 employees
并且这也让其他人陷入风险 that I have here that we're doing everything that we can.
你应该分享更多， 而不是更少 We're not putting anybody in harm's way.
是，我考虑了你会认为事情怎样发展 I want to be your advocate, ok?
不 我说的是 But your pattern of withholding information
你没有诚实待人， does not serve you and it does not serve others well.
你可以不理会我的看法， You think you're protecting yourself,
或者你可以说“你知道什么？” and what it does is... is it heightens the risk.
也许我没有对人们坦诚 Now, it is true.
也许有 I think had you put on your application your conviction,
好吧，那就不要理会这个观点， you might not have gotten hired.
把它看做可能有价值的信息 I think that's true. That's a risk you have to take.
你不会处理后果的 And I think you think you're protected
你知道什么？ when you say less,
你知道这里谁会有更多的后果吗？ and I think that puts you at greater risk
是我，不是你 and it puts other people at risk.
你凭什么这么说？ You need to share more, not less.
因为我是那个在团体中的人， Yeah, I'm thinking about how you think certain things should go.
我是那个在社区里的人， No. What I'm saying is
我是那个在这承担风险的人 you don't approach people honestly,
而你在说你的风险，明白吗？ and you can dismiss that as my opinion,
是，因为我可能蹲监狱，而不是你 or you can say, "You know what?
你才不会去蹲监狱 Maybe I'm not being honest with people."
你不知道 Maybe not.
你不能这么说， Well, then rather than just dismissing that as an opinion,
你隔壁邻居可能会告诉她女儿， consider it as maybe valuable information.
“嘿你知道吗？那个家伙看你了吗？” You ain't the one that's gonna deal with the consequences from it.
而你正告诉我你知道她不会这么做。 You know what?
你不知道这些，对吗？ You know who's going to have more consequences here?
而如果那真的发生了， I am, not you.
你去找他们，你只会说“我很抱歉” How do you figure that?
但我是那个跟这事有关 Because I'm the one in the community,
需要解释发生了什么的人 I'm the one in the neighborhood,
而我不想让自己置身于此。 I'm the one who's taking the risk here.
我真的很累了... And you're talking about your risks, ok?
你隐瞒信息 Yeah, 'cause I might be the one sitting in jail, not you.
而我和你一起隐瞒，所以也有责任。 You're not gonna be in jail.
你在绑架我的良心， You don't know that.
而这对谁都不好 You can't say that this,
也不会对我的家庭有帮助。 your next door neighbor, may tell her daughter,
很快我会告诉你 "Hey, you know what? Did the guy look at you?"
你能做的两件 And you're telling me that you know that she wouldn't do that.
真正能帮助我的事情 You don't know that, do you?
一，我要公示这件事 And if that did happen,
Keith，这是公共信息 you go to them, you just say, "I'm sorry."
它是公开的 But I'm the one that in this situation
你想做什么就做 having to explain how this happened.
不不不，那不是我要的 And I don't want to be in that position.
那不是我想要的 I am really tired...
你为什么要操控一切？ of your withholding information,
因为我很沮丧 and I'm responsible to withhold it with you.
你为什么要露面？ You are binding my conscience,
在这，你的态度， and sometimes that doesn't serve people,
你展示你行为的方式， and it doesn't serve my family.
是不必要的 And I'm going to tell you real quickly
你不必产生敌意。 two things that you could do
好，那有情绪和有点生气呢？ that would really help me.
好吧，也许你需要时间冷静下来，然后好好想想 One, give me permission to share it.
也许—— 就一会 It is public information, Keith.
我不想说了 It's public.
靠边停车，无照驾驶 You do what you want to.
当他写下我的名字时， No, no, no. That's not what I'm asking.
发现我是个在1986年 That's not what I'm asking.
被记录在案的性侵者 Why you getting all animated?
我可不像个淫魔，或者类似的东西， Because I'm frustrated.
你知道的 Why you making a scene?
老实跟你说吧， This right here, your attitude,
我不后悔当初登记。 the way you're displaying your behavior,
如果我那么做了，我就不会在这儿了 is unnecessary.
我对你一无所知 You don't have to become hostile.
你知道，你们这些家伙必须让我走 Ok. How about emotional and a little angry?
当我兜里揣着进出钥匙 Well, maybe you need time to cool off and think about it.
要帮你时 Maybe-- Just a second.
你离开了，我负责夜宿人的事 I'm finished talking.
我的成长是真的，不是演戏 MEZO: Got pulled over for driving with no license.
这不是我装出来的，你知道 And as he ran my name and everything,
这大半辈子里我一直是个非常厉害的行骗高手 found out I was a registered sex offender
而这不是一个骗局 from something back in '86.
Alan，你必须走 I'm not like a sexual predator or anything like that,
你在这太引人注目了 you know.
那并没有什么关系 To be honest with you,
不管多好的一个人 I don't regret not registering right away.
即使他们今天是英雄， If I'd have done that, I wouldn't have been here.
五年后，就埋在某处 I wouldn't know any of you.
这些都不会有多少记录， You know, you guys would have had to turn me away.
而那些全部的、 When I was here helping you
跟随他们一生的记录 with keys in my pocket, access in and out,
是污点， you leaving, I'm in charge of the overnighter thing.
这种判断方式让人伤心 My growth is real. It's not an act.
我把东西都收拾好时还来得及 It's not something I'm putting on, you know.
大概是十点半，十一点那样 I've been a pretty good con artist most of my life.
当我最终离开威利斯顿的时候 And this ain't a con.
我在车里睡着又醒来 Alan, you need to move.
准备翻个身， You're attracting lightning here.
然后我在救护车里再次醒来，所以... MEZO, VOICE-OVER: It doesn't matter
我唯一清楚的记忆 what good a person does.
就是在医院里， Even if they're a hero today,
等着我父母过来 5 years down the road, that's buried somewhere.
我的C7椎骨折 That's no ton their record,
我说“你要在那做什么？” and all it is on their record
他也不知道他要干什么 that stays with them throughout their life
他有义务并决定了下一步怎么做 is negative stuff,
只是他的思想被某种东西占据 and it's sad because that's such a judgment.
就像他做的一切 EDWARDS: It wasn't till late that I got everything packed up
妈。 Carry... and was probably about 10:30, 11:00
他只是记住了他要做一些事 when I finally left Williston.
并且他做了 Fell asleep and woke up in my truck
至于他又回到这， about ready to roll over,
老实讲我——我——我已经告诉我的孩子们 and then woke up again in the ambulance, so...
我说”高中毕业后， The only, like, clear memory I have
不要回来” is sitting in a hospital,
我的意思是，我会去看你们 just waiting on my parents to get there.
我可以去你们住的地方 I fractured the C7 vertebra.
这儿什么也没有 MAN: I said, "What are you gonna do out there?"
说这些很丢人 And he didn't have no idea what he was gonna do.
抚养你的孩子并告诉他们 He was bound and determined he was gonna do it.
“去做点什么，不要在这儿待着 Just kind of gets his mind set on something and does it.
因为这儿什么也没有” Kind of like everything he does.
我发怒的原因 Mom. Carry...
是因为你去了北达科他州 He just gets it in his head he's gonna do something,
那是个烂透了的地方， and he does it.
我的意思是，对，那有很多钱， As far as him going back out there,
但是我想比任何东西都重要的是 honestly I--I-- I've told all my kids this.
能够在威斯康辛州工作 I said, "When you leave high school,
赚那种钱 don't come back."
去吧 I mean, I'll come visit you.
走，走 I can go wherever you live.
走，走 There's nothing here.
人们就来这待一小会儿 It's a shame to say that.
这些事是真的，他们很紧张， It's a community to raise your kids and tell 'em,
然后他们离开 "Go do something. You're not gonna do it here
这太痛苦了 because there's nothing here."
在某种意义上，破裂可能是... Which just pisses me off
他们之前不会破裂的方式 'cause you go up to North Dakota
由于牧师是死在房车 and it's a shitty-ass place,
出于某种原因， and I mean, yeah, there's a lot of money,
让一切不是我的都离开这儿 but I'd love that more than anything
你知道，我有许多优点， to be able to work in Wisconsin
我喜欢这里。 and make the kind of money I was making out there.
我的意思是，我把这当成我的家 Go ahead.
我犯了一个错误，这使我脸上无光 Go, go.
几个月前我故态复萌，又开始嗑药 Go, go.
我在一个抉择点， JAY: People come in for just a little while,
我究竟是离开这里还是成为杀人狂还是自杀 and the connections are real and they're intense,
我甚至不确定我要去哪 and then they're gone.
Alan？ That's painful.
嘘 And in a sense, this is broken in maybe...
嘘 in ways that they weren't broken before.
看来我拿错钥匙了 MEZO, VOICE-OVER: 'Cause the pastor is dead set
Alan，我到房车这里了 on having this RV for some reason,
你猜怎么着,Alan？ getting everything out of here that ain't mine.
那么…… You know, I had a lot of good stuff going,
你给我从车上下来 and I loved it here.
听着，小姐，顺便告诉你 I mean, I considered this home.
是这车的主人告诉我来取这辆车 I made one mistake, and that's when everything kind of blew up in my face.
你是？ I relapsed a few months ago and started using meth again.
Heather I'm at a point to where it's either
谢了，Heather I get the heck out of here or I'm gonna become homicidal or suicidal.
你现在可是坐在私人财产上 I'm not even sure where I'm going.
你应该下车并且滚蛋 [Car door closes]
过来，Deuce Alan?
这狗咬人的，快过来，Deuce，我们走 Don't tell me.
Alan，你有钥匙吗？ Don't tell me.
你真应该走了 [Piano music playing softly]
嗯 I don't think I've got the right key.
你得走了 Alan, I came to get the RV.
能再说……Alan？ Guess what, Alan?
钥匙在哪里，Alan？ So where are the--
我只数到5 WOMAN: You can get off the property.
嗯 Look, ma'am, just for the record,
1... 额 the owners have told me to get this RV.
2... And your name is?
Alan Heather.
如果你现在还不从我的车上下来， Heather. Thank you, Heather.
根据法律我可是能杀死你的。 （美国法律规定人民可以合法持枪并且有权射杀侵犯自己领土并对本人造成威胁的人，并且不承担法律责任） You're on private property.
那么现在我只能试试…… You should probably get out of the vehicle and go.
可真是个好邻居 Come on, Deuce. [Whistles]
嘿，你看，那是火车 This dog bites. Come on. Deuce, let's go.
我很喜欢火车 Alan, do you have the keys?
等我一下，我得去跟火车挥挥手 WOMAN: You need to get out.
你介意吗？ Ok.
马上 我一直觉得 You need to go.
在火车经过的时候我们得向他招手 I beg your--Alan.
你们想下车挥手吗？ Where are the keys, Alan?
到了，很快的，好吗？ I'm only counting to 5.
你好啊！哇哦！ Ok.
给你 1... Ok.
车就停在美洲银行后面 [Cocks rifle]
如果你多给我一天我应该能把它清理一遍 2...
但你没有，你就立马想要 Alan.
这就是你处理事情的方式 The court of law says I can shoot you
我把我的东西都拿出来了 if you don't get off my property. Now!
我和你彻底完了 [Piano playing gets louder]
这里太让人失望 So for now I'm gonna try and get...
以前我们那么亲近，牧师， [Continues indistinctly
之后你像丢垃圾那么抛弃我 [Yelling indistinctly]
Alan-- [Whack]
我不想再听你说话了 Nice little neighborhood.
我只是称述事实 Oh, hey, there's Amtrak.
你这个自以为是的家伙，欺骗了教堂会众 I love Amtrak.
你靠谎言欺骗我们 Just a second. I got a thing about waving at Amtrak.
你要知道，你真的不是一个很好的榜样 Do you mind?
你可真是一个好的老师 Just a sec. I always feel like
当你站在台上讲话的时候 we should wave at an Amtrak when it goes by.
看着你和你的生活 Do you guys want to jump out and wave?
我不想成为其中的一部分 Here, real quick, shall we?
我也不想参与其中 [Train whistle blows]
同时我也不想要你的上帝成为我生活的一部分 Hey! Woo! Woo!
走进我的生活并且指手画脚 Here you go.
你是我的控诉人，是我的法官 It's sitting there behind American State Bank.
现在，你只是我的敌人 I'd have cleaned it if you'd have gave me another day.
这就是我想的 But you didn't, you wanted to push it and push it,
所以，好好想想，懂了吗 so you got it the way it is.
我对你已经毫无尊重可言了，一点都没了 I got my stuff out of there.
我只是不明白，一个社区怎么能 I'm done with you.
就这么简单的拒绝接受 It's hopeless.
那些无处居住的人 You brought me really close, Pastor,
我… then you pull your crap.
只是想知道 Alan--
我们是一个团体吗？ I don't want to hear nothin' from you.
这些信，什么意思？ I'm just stating the fact.
这是说我们得在30天内关门吗 You're egotistic. You lie to the congregation.
那么……那么我们 You lie by deceit.
真的明白这意味着什么吗？ You know, you're not a very good role model.
这的确就是她信里想要说的 You're a heck of a good teacher
我们必须得在30天内把这关了 when you stand up there at the podium and talk.
假使我们没有收到规划和划分 As far as watching you and how you live your life,
我们唯一的选择就是关了这里 I don't want no part of it.
采取文明不合作 I don't want no part of that
简单地无视他们 and I don't want no part of your god.
可是把人都赶出教堂 Come in here and accusing.
那也于事无补 You're my accuser. You're my judge.
这里石油产业照样繁荣兴盛 And now you're my enemy.
这不可能阻止人们到来的脚步 That's how I feel.
你知道吗？ So think about that... you know?
人们都是这么设想的 I've got no more respect for you at all. None.
如果一切明天都可以结束 [Engine starts]
生活又重新回到原来的轨迹 JAY: I don't understand how a community
那是不可能的 can just simply turn its back
嗯，我…… on people who have no place to sleep.
我不知道该说些什么 I would...
我想，这可能对我们都好 just wonder...
沟通后 are we even a community?
可能今晚在你们当中 GIRL: The letter-- What does that mean?
就有这样的听众 Does that mean you have to close down in 30 days?
我们曾对Concordia Lutheran教堂 Does that-- Are we--
的申请有过特殊的批准 Actually understand what's gonna happen?
但在特殊会议后，我们还是决定 Definitely it means her letter says
撤回这个申请 we have to close in 30 days.
或者今晚把这个撤出议程 If--If we are not heard at the planning and zoning,
接下里我就让Kent来详细说明下 then I think the only options will be to close...
具体情况 to engage in civil disobedience
消防队长查看了 and simply ignore them.
条例和规范 Well, kicking people out of a church
根据以上，调整如下 isn't gonna change the fact
这个房子未设有消防灭火系统 that there's still an oil boom going on.
床位也不允许放在走廊上 It's not gonna stop the people from coming.
你们必须设定特定的睡眠区域并且符合防火规范 You know?
所以说这个教堂是不完善的 People are under the assumption that,
好的 well, if everything were to just stop tomorrow,
如果你还有什么其他理由想继续待下去 life would go back to the way it was.
当然了，你可以留下来 And that's not true.
但是你必须得有特殊的原因 JAY: No, I--Yeah.
我们不能动手了，懂吗？ I don't know what to say.
主席先生，你是否能…… I mean, it could possibly go in our favor.
不行，这次我真的办不到。 Under communications,
因为我们不能采取行动 and probably some in the audience
这次我们也不会发表任何的公共评论 are here this evening for this,
那么，接下来是今晚的公共听证会 but we had a special permitted use application
我不知道该怎么 for Concordia Lutheran Church to house people,
在9月12日前结束这一切 and after a special meeting, a decision was made
本质上讲，我们不能睡在这里 to withdraw that application
我们没得选择 or take that off the agenda for this evening,
而我又失败了。 and I would ask Kent to please expound
我必须告诉你们，我失败了 on what transpired there.
我没争取到…… KENT: The fire chief looked through
一切都毫无意义了 his ordinance and codes,
你们或许认为这个城市是一个整体 and based on the way the setup is now,
会试着去帮助那些 the building does not have a sprinkler system.
同样想要帮助他们的人 You can't have sleeping facilities in the hallways.
那就像……你们在这个房间 You have to deem specific sleeping areas and meet fire codes.
他们就想着往你脑子踩上一脚 So therefore it was deemed incomplete.
还想淹死你，懂吗？ MAN: Ok.
之后就直接把他们扔出这里，懂吗？ So if there's other things that you want to stay for,
他们不配有机会 you're certainly welcome to stay,
每个人都配有机会，这是美国 but if that's the specific reason that you're here,
这是美国立国之本。 we cannot act on it, ok?
帮助你的邻居 Mr. Chairman, will you take any public...
成为一个好人 No. At this time, I really can't
但在威利斯顿 你看不到这一切 because we aren't going to be acting on it.
他们就说 So therefore we won't be taking any public comments at this time.
我们无家可归 Ok, we will move on to our public hearings this evening.
我不是无家可归，我只是为了生活挣扎 JAY: I do not know any way around our closing
我在肯塔基有一个家 by the 12th of September.
我只想要一个更好的生活 And that just means essentially there's no options
我不知道该怎么办 in terms of sleeping here.
你所做的一切 And I just don't get it.
是平常人不敢的 I have to tell you I don't get it.
人就应该为他人服务 I don't get it.
让邻人改变你的生活 It makes no sense to me at all.
我估计在这个镇上 MAN: You would think the city as a whole
是再遇不到像你这样的人了 would be trying to help people
如果真有，那想必也是一个更美好的地方 that's trying to help themselves.
谢了，朋友，这样真的很好。 There's, like, you're in this room.
这样真的很好 Well, they're trying to put their foot on top of your head
我不会向绝望屈服 and drown you, you know?
因为绝望永难获胜 Just get them on out of here, you know?
也因为绝望是一个谎言 They don't deserve a chance.
我从未觉得 Everyone deserves a chance. This is America.
我属于威利斯顿 This is what this country was founded on, you know.
我想，教堂算是，但社区，不是 Helping your neighbor, you know,
现在我有理由去记住 just being good people,
为什么我不属于这里 and Williston's not seeing that message
我曾是那个总是说教的人 when they're basically saying, you know,
帮助夜宿人，服务其他人 we're homeless.
服务社区,服务邻居 I'm not homeless. I'm just struggling.
同时，从更基础的角度上讲 I have a home in Kentucky.
我没有很好处理我和家庭的关系 I just want a better life.
我也忽视社区和我的家人 I don't know what else to do.
同时，我深深地伤害了他们 What you do is something that cannot be done
“私我”同“公我”是存在距离的 by average people.
我能相信“公我” JAY, VOICE-OVER: To be human is to serve
因为有时候看起来很完美 and to let the neighbor change your life.
但“私我”，却变成他物 I don't think we have anymore people like you
这很难开口 in this town.
但在我生命中，我曾为自己的同性倾向挣扎过 If we did, it would be a lot better place.
而我一直在掩饰着 Thanks, you guys. It's really been good.
你没听错，我也陷入了崩溃 It's really been good.
昨天我开车出去 JAY, VOICE-OVER: I will not give in to despair
找一个你我 because hopeless should never win
能够坐下来聊天的地方 and hopeless is a lie.
那么没有快乐的回忆 JAY, VOICE-OVER: I never really felt
那里很难看 like I belonged in Williston.
所以我们在聊天完后，就可以离开 I mean, the church, yeah, but as a community, not really.
我必须得坦白 Now I have ever reason to remember
Terry Forke 可能在一两周内过来 why I don't belong here.
问我那些辩解是不是真的 JAY, VOICE-OVER: I was the one who always preached
当然，他们是真的 serving others to the overnighters.
谁？ Serve the community, serve the neighbors.
那是一个要勒索我的人 And...in some of the most fundamental ways,
嗯… the relationship to my family, I didn't serve.
我把你置于非常糟糕的境遇 And I neglected the community I was given and my family,
我的思想和渴求已经被罪恶玷污了 and I have... I have hurt them terribly.
我明知故犯又心甘情愿的打破第六诫命 The private me distances itself from the public me,
“你不可奸淫” and I can believe the public me
同时违背了我的职业，作为丈夫，父亲，邻居 because sometimes it looks very good.
基督徒和牧师 But the private me... has become something else.
我只按自己的意愿行事 This is a hard thing to say.
我让他人陷入诱惑的迷梦中 But in my life, I have struggled with same-sex attraction.
我得罪了全社区的人 And I've acted on that.
和那个我曾公开表示愿侍为仆人的真理 It's true. I'm the one who's broken.
我现在奢求这个社区怀疑真相 So yesterday I went for a drive,
并且把这些证词视为上帝的话语 looking for a place where you and I
把这次的相聚当作一个谎言 could sit and talk,
我冒犯我忠诚的妻子，Andrea where it has no positive memories,
那个把她一身奉献给我和我们孩子的女人 where it's ugly
我暴露了她的心痛和羞愧 so we could have a conversation and then leave.
我辜负可爱孩子们的信任 I have to make confession.
辜负他们想让我只爱和服务他们母亲的愿望 Terry Forke is gonna come probably in a week or two
辜负带给他们美好生活的心愿 and ask me if certain allegations are true,
你们相信着我，但我却背叛你们的信任 and they are.
我已经辞去了牧师的职位 Who?
我得离开，但看看我给家人带来了什么？ There's a man who's blackmailed me...
他们都是受害者 and...
如今我失去了工作 I've put you in a horrible... horrible spot.
我也在也成为了夜宿人 JAY: My thoughts and desires have been soiled by sin.
可我现在已经57岁了！ I have broken knowingly and willingly the sixth commandment,
我不是很明确自己要从哪里重新开始 "You shall not commit adultery,"
Jay Reinke 现在在北达科塔油田找工作 and have violated my vocation as husband, father, neighbor,
有一千多人在Concordia Lutheran教堂住了两年多 几百人住在教堂停车场 Christian, and pastor.
? Lonely are the free ? I have served my own will.
? 'Cause there ain't that many of 'em ? I have led others into temptation.
? They don't walk like you and me ? I've sinned against the members of this entire community
? Just tumble in the breeze ? to whom I have spoken publicly as a servant of truth.
? Lighter than a feather, all together separately ? I have now tempted this community to doubt that truth
? That's how it's supposed to be ? and to regard the testimony of God's word
? No matter where they wander from post to in between ? and the ministry of this congregation as a lie.
我叫Digi I have sinned against my faithful wife, Andrea,
我来自刚果金 who has given her life to me and to our children.
我叫Michael，我来自费城 And I have exposed her to heartache and shame.
我叫Darrell I have abused the trust of my beloved children,
我是北达科塔原住民 who want me only to love and serve their mother
但我来自皮奥里亚，伊利诺伊 and to lead a godly life.
我叫Dia,我来自马里兰 You have trusted me, and I have betrayed your trust.
我原籍是伊拉克的巴格达 I have resigned my position as a pastor.
我叫Dennis，我来自威斯康星的密尔沃基 I've got to leave, but look what I've done to my family.
Chris，底特律，密歇根 They're the victims here.
我叫Chris，我来自刚果布 JAY, VOICE-OVER: So now I'm without a job.
我叫Tyler Lokvanier，来自比灵斯，蒙大拿 And I'm where the overnighters were.
我叫Akton，来自加纳 I'm 57 years old,
? And now the moment's gone ? and I'm not quite sure where to start.
? It keeps you hanging on ? [Machinery banging]
? Until the silence signaling the breaking of the dawn ? ? Lonely are the free ?
? Is shattered by the sirens singing sacrificial songs ? ? 'Cause there ain't that many of 'em ?
? The silent are the strong ? ? They don't walk like you and me ?
? That's all they ever see ? ? Just tumble in the breeze ?
? A violent shadow passing across the sun so fleetingly ? ? Lighter than a feather, all together separately ?
? That if you have to ask you miss it anyway you see ? ? That's how it's supposed to be ?
? Lonely are the free ? ? No matter where they wander from post to in between ?